a moment to remember

~songs in my head~

没有地球太阳还是会绕.

But I don’t care what they say. I’m in love with you.

I just wanna fall and lose myself Laughing so hard it hurts like hell Forget about everything and run away, yeah

~ MOTTO ~
:: if you have tried your best, there's no need for regrets. ::

~ THOUGHTS ~
By ourselves we are too weak to hold our own even for a moment.

"And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God" (Romans 8:28)

For what it's worth, it was worth all the while.

"God has given, God has taken, blessed be the name of God" (Job 1:21)

"I know what I’m doing. I have it all planned out – plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for.” (Jeremiah 29:11)

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:: juz taking a moment to remember ::

Friday, April 30, 2010 8:34 AM

Roses that don't bloom

The only thing that I look forward to nowadays is my bed
Weekends, they are a thing of the past
Online shopping, the kicks are gone
The only thing I want everyday is to sleep
A deep sleep, without bad dreams and backaches

This year, parents & sis going china without me
Lack of funds + leave (my colleague going reservist for 3 weeks)
It will be a busy june
Before I know it, I will have to make some decisions
Before I know it, august willl come & I will turn 24
But I don't want time to just slip past
Too fast, too slippery
Not enough time for me, not enough to accomplish what I set out to do at the beginning

It all feels like I've been in this solo world for too long
If you sit beside me, I may not recognise you
That's me, me, always one person now & another the next
yet I accumulate more and more masks
Masking the interior
Piling on layers.

goodbye or see you,
I'll be your best kept secret or your biggest mistake.

Labels: growing up

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Thursday, April 29, 2010 10:47 PM

love this convertible wrap dress.
The http://www.butterbynadia.com/ website is nicely done too.
the dream dress of every woman.

i am really in my own world sometimes.
i keep trying to get out but it seems like im in it more than ever.

goodbye or see you,
I'll be your best kept secret or your biggest mistake.

Labels: whoever invented fashion committed an atrocious crime

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Sunday, April 25, 2010 11:54 PM

unlimited funds required

my loves of the month.
i've been reduced to only browsing, no buying.
the very sight of my overflowing wardrobe/stocks is enough to put me off more new clothes!

looks like the asos one i wanted.....

amazing chiffon 'pants'. it just reminds me of jasmine in Aladdin.

i got something like that!

superb.

spiderman.... its a bra that is meant to be seen.

whiteblackberry.... all i have got to do is wait till june.

and a new matt black camera coming before end of this year!

goodbye or see you,
I'll be your best kept secret or your biggest mistake.

Labels: whoever invented fashion committed an atrocious crime

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Friday, April 23, 2010 10:45 PM

"Who says Sg men are boring? Guy proposes to GF with bus stop ad at Dhoby Ghaut"

Watch how this guy propose to his gf!
Interestingly, i've been reading this girl's blog from time to time
i think she shares the same initials nsh as me.

although the whole proposal involves alot of preparation, thick skin as well as help from their friends/relatives, and i think it is darn sweet of the guy to put in so much effort into a proposal, personally im not a sucker for public proposals.

why?

1) it places too much pressure on both parties (although of course im sure the guy was 99.99% sure that she will say yes but still its too risky isnt it? or she might say yes in public and then return home and decide against it)

2) personally, i feel that a proposal should be done in a quiet, private setting. not literally has to be inside the bathroom of your own house but a restaurant, on top of a hill-top, or someplace meaningful would do. perhaps after both parties get down from an exhilarating rollercoaster ride or free fall (ie. Turbo drop) hahaha.. provided the ring doesnt fly off during the ride.

3) it is really none of the public's business when your bf proposes to you... so there's no need to let the whole world know. if you look at STOMP, there are many mean people in this country/world that left snide or negative remarks ranging from 'like that very big deal meh' to 'aiya sure divorce one la' to rumours like 'the girl drinks alot at pubs, and the guy isnt as faithful as you think'. Seriously, our world is filled with these disgusting people who are either green eyed or just plain crude. what is wrong with drinking at pubs? and does her drinking at pubs concern you? i never liked such media attention, perhaps i dont take well to criticism (or rather, just non-constructive bad-mouthing).

interestingly, the guy works at clear channel. hehe. so at least he probably got the ad space for free or at 'staff's price'.

watch the video at:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=30QvCJg_Frw&feature=player_embedded

getting married at 25 (that's the girl's age), it doesnt seem to be happening to me.
once so long ago, i dreamt of it.
and i thought or believed it was possible (when you are only 16, 25 sounds like a big deal and very far away)
now... Que Sera Sera..

goodbye or see you,
I'll be your best kept secret or your biggest mistake.

Labels: why must we label everything?, youtube

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Thursday, April 22, 2010 11:35 PM

我好累

突然，我觉得自己好像一直在一个圈里。。。
i really do not know,
what is the correct thing to do.
is it fair to assume that things will be the same 1 year later, 2 years later, or even 10 years later?
我们都好像好辛苦。。
感情不应该是那么忧愁的吧？
我们错在哪里？还是从一开始，这就是一段很苦的搭配？

如果有一天，我们再见面，世界会不会倒退一点？（梁静茹歌曲）
我感到很无奈，摆脱。。谁能给我一个回复？

看到 Jeon Ji Hyun 的长发照，就让我好想要留我的头发。。。
她好漂亮。。。
头发黑黑，亮亮。。
我不该把头发剪短。。。要保持现在的刘海，才能长得象美丽的 Jeon Ji Hyun.

也许，很快，你就会成为永远的一个秘密。。。

goodbye or see you,
I'll be your best kept secret or your biggest mistake.

Labels: if love wasnt so atrocious I would have stayed blind

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Tuesday, April 20, 2010 12:23 AM

you think, i thought, who confirm?

it seems like no matter how many times you try,
there are some things that you will never master.

why does it all seem so familiar.
like a cycle.
waves rise and they fall.
and they crash upon the shore.
perhaps a high tide must always recede into a low tide.

words are words.
they only carry so much weight.
it always started with a bang, and seems to always end with a sigh.
when am i going to learn,
when am i going to be able to wise up,
when will i know.
or when will i act.

life keeps throwing this little rocks onto my path...

goodbye or see you,
I'll be your best kept secret or your biggest mistake.

Labels: growing up

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Thursday, April 15, 2010 12:33 AM

i've fallen in love.

what is it with me & bags, recently?
i was never a bags person.
perhaps as i grow older, i realise that bags dont bring you pain (aka some heels) but only pleasure.
guilty pleasure.

saw these brand new 'preloved' bags from BagSG site.

Prada bag! only $1700! this's quite similar to the one i want (below), only different shape. cant decide whether i love this more or the nude lambskin one here

the other day i saw one woman carrying the black one. my eyes were glued to the bag. nice too!

Chanel Black Caviar Jumbo - $4880 original price. owner selling for few hundred dollars lesser.
i do love chanel alot but the 2.55 bag, it's bit over-subscribed.

i went bowling with my colleagues today. fun!
should do it more often, didnt know per game is only $3-4
quite affordable leisure...
just that my actual bowling skills also sucked... either i bowled into gutter or only hit 1 - 4 pins each time. only managed to strike once (:
Wii bowling/iphone bowling is so much easier :P

goodbye or see you,
I'll be your best kept secret or your biggest mistake.

Labels: dreams

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Tuesday, April 06, 2010 7:08 PM

That cursed dress + online shopping theories

I think it is about time that I chuck that DKNY-inspired dress!
Seriously…. I don’t dare to wear it anymore, it seems like 499 other girls own it too.
Last month I was thinking of wearing it but decided to wear something else.
Luckily. Cause while I was crossing the traffic light at my office there, this girl walked past me wearing that! Imagine if I had worn that very same dress. Cringe. So paiseh.

Yesterday I decided to wear it. But I was wearing my black blazer with it so that it will be less obvious even if I bumped into someone wearing it. I went to work, then marina square, then home, thinking that it was quite pathetic to have to hide what I was wearing. And then after alighting from my bus, while walking that 200metres home from the bus stop………..

There was this woman/mother going into her family car wearing the exact same dress. She gave me a double look after she realized. But I just pretended not to see her hahaha. She was in her late 20s/early 30s I think? And I was like thank God I have my blazer on, at least we don’t look like walking carbon copies. Eew. Hence, I think I shall never wear that out liao. Pity pity, I like the lime green tone. Sigh~

It seems like I have outgrown online shopping (for good, maybe). It doesn’t excite me the same way it did 2 years ago, or was it 3. It doesn’t have the same effect on me anymore. I was thinking hard why:

a) all the clothes look the same, and most are either poor quality or just too teensy-looking/trendy for me. Maybe im just too seasoned. There are no designs that really WOW me anymore, not even looking at ASOS stuff excites me. Bareback, tie-back, cross-back, ladder back, criss cross, bodycon, bandage, lace, maxi dresses, chiffon flutter, leggings, jeggings (the new term for denim jeans + leggings) and whatsnot, I have seen and possibly owned them all except harem pants (which I still don’t quite fancy as I don’t think a baggy crotch area looks nice on me). It’s pretty SADS (Wong, 2010). There’s nothing to buy even if I want to. My wardrobe already contains at least 2 of each style described above. I guess this is what you call the equilibrium in economics – my supply has met my demand. Hahah.

b) Admittably, there are some nice pieces from time to time that are suitable for work, wallet-friendly (compared to zara/mango/topshop) but they are from the superbly popular online shops like bonitochico, agneselle. Before I even buy anything, an alarm bell already rings in my head that about 499 other girls will have this too in the same color or another color. And I will bump into at least one of them wearing the same thing to zouk or orchard 313. This then puts me off from purchase. So there, back to nothing to buy.

c) Sites like forever 2 1, gojane, asos, that I used to bookmark and visit fervently to join sprees…. They don’t seem to have anything that is so eye-catching anymore. Even g-market, Korean sprees and I can’t remember what else I fancied… somehow just lost their appeal.

d) I no longer check my shopping email every 5mins like I used to in university. Like literally keep refreshing, camping infront of computers for tracyeinny updates, endless scrolling though sgflea, sgsale communities. I do miss doing that with siting though. It was so much more fun doing online shopping together I guess. Maybe that is one of the reasons I’ve cut down.

e) Or maybe after I started earning my own keep, a depreciating bank account isn’t a nice sight.

f) Plus now that everyone is into online shopping, it just doesn’t seem that special anymore. It used to be quite cool and unheard of – ‘where did you get this dress?’…. ‘oh I bought it online (said with a smirk)’…. ‘huh… how you pay? Have to use credit card right?’….. ‘no la, can use posb transfer/ibanking’…….. so it was like if your clothes are bought online, they are either special cuz the designs are different from physical stores, or they are cheaper (think f21), or just the fact that they are bought online! But now it’s like they set up BEST OF BLOGSHOPS stores (roll eyes, never saw the point), and shops like hula & co just sell the same stuff from online shops. And everyone is wearing something that is distinguishably and obviously from online.

lastly, there are also just too many, too many, too many online shops out there. The secret of the source is not so secret anymore. I think the last reason is that I just don’t want to pay the amount to buy something from a blogshop when I already know the cost price & source. I miss the OGD days even, when its not so competitive. I guess that’s the problem with trends. The start is always fun to ride along, but then eventually it gets boring.

I used to think I will always love online shopping, but guess not. I believe it will still exist of course, its not a fad but has become a part of living. Heck we can even buy groceries online. But sadly in terms of fashion, I think its appeal has worn off me. I seem to be more into bags and shoes now. Imagine all the amount I have ‘invested’/’thrown’ into clothes over the past 3 years, I could have easily bought that prada lambskin bag!!!

moral of the story: whoever invented fashion committed an atrocious crime, indeed. hahaha.

goodbye or see you,
I'll be your best kept secret or your biggest mistake.

Labels: growing up, whoever invented fashion committed an atrocious crime

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Sunday, April 04, 2010 11:54 PM

all truths get spilled.

im thrilled!
found this website that i can stream japanese & korean dramas & movies!
for free.
what's more, the loading is alright and the quality is fine. (Mysoju.com)
too bad i have not found a website to catch gossip girl & 90210. so im stuck at dont know which episode now :(
Anyway i watched The Naked Kitchen just now.
it is quite crap for a korean movie but i only watched cause Joo Ji-Hoon, from the drama Goong.
the title is strange as there is no nudity nor is there really that much focus on culinary stuff.
the movie is basically quite pointless, with an ending that is as good as none.
not really worth watching unless you just want to catch Ji-Hoon in it.
read that he's off to the army (reminds me of won-bin so long ago!) and that he was caught taking drugs. nobody's a saint these days.

i also found that youtube has this japanese drama from the 1990s. one of the very first few j-drama that i watched on channel 8 when it was still TCS.
Hitotsu Yane No Shita (ひとつ屋根の下 ) or Under The Same Roof
perhaps you might have watched this before.

"A car accident killed a couple, orphaning their six children. The eldest child, Tatsuya, separately relocated them to the homes of their relatives and adopters. However, after seven years, Tatsuya decides to reunite his brothers and sisters to live together under one roof. To his disappointment, he is met with resentment and discord."
Staring Eguchi Yosuke (the大哥), Sakai Noriko (super pretty 酒井法子!), Fukuyama Masaharu (cute!) and Ishida Issei, and Matsu Takako, whom later appeared in Love Generation.

i am so gonna re-watch this drama! :)
i'm happy!

i had a really great good friday + long weekend.
the vista bistro at east coast park with my baby on 2 days.
the breeze and the company, and the colorful cobb salad with rows & rows of diced tomatoes, onions, chicken, cheddar cheese.
it felt like rainy spring in singapore!
love the twinings tea set that they use to serve the tea.
darjeeling tea, english breakfast. i love tea nowadays.
from a coffee lover to a tea lover.
its funny how i dont even crave for coffee in any form nowadays.
i still love the aroma of freshly brewed coffee though
looking forward to getting TWG tea bags as well as the coffee bean ones in pretty cans.

recently we also watched this french movie - LOL
loved the movie & the soundtrack.
youtube is a marvelous thing created, a god-send
and zamzar is also good, for allowing me to convert the youtube links into mp3.
<3<3<3

i would not say life is all good every moment
it has its ups and its downs
some time last week, it certainly seemed like things might change for a moment
for we are still hanging and spinning.
making a web from whatever thread we can spin.

i love playing wii in the office when im feeling stressed out or overwhelmed by the logsheets i have to do.
it really helps to destress.
our company's potluck last wednesday was really great too.
i had italian fish soup for the first time in my life, it tasted delicious.
not to mention one very yummy salad that my colleague's wife made.
and dressing up our headsets with bunny ears for easter celebration.
all these makes work more fun. :)

goodbye or see you,
I'll be your best kept secret or your biggest mistake.

Labels: a woman's work is never done, if love wasnt so atrocious I would have stayed blind

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