~songs in my head~
没有地球太阳还是会绕.But I don’t care what they say. I’m in love with you. I just wanna fall and lose myself Laughing so hard it hurts like hell Forget about everything and run away, yeah ~ MOTTO ~ :: if you have tried your best, there's no need for regrets. :: ~ THOUGHTS ~ By ourselves we are too weak to hold our own even for a moment. "And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God" (Romans 8:28) For what it's worth, it was worth all the while. "God has given, God has taken, blessed be the name of God" (Job 1:21) "I know what I’m doing. I have it all planned out – plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for.” (Jeremiah 29:11) Hit Counters |
:: juz taking a moment to remember ::
Tuesday, October 30, 2007 1:03 AM
what i am feeling now tomorrow i have a presentation, or should i say today i will be having a presentation because now its 1:06 am already but then i was pissed cuz my group members who were always all along very efficient and good team players suddenly seemed so lax about it we do not have the final ppt slides we did not rehearse and we took a long time to even finalise who is going to present etc grrrr first time ever that i have a presentation tomorrow and nothing, seriously nothing is done, less than 12 hrs to the presentation. and tomorrow i also have the bloody interview for my internship i kinda regret choosing both such popular companies after seeing so many people getting selected after interviews for other companies. some people very lucky get selected for both choices. sigh. i dont feel much hope lah. cuz theres like wat, 8 people to be interviewed, and prob only take in 1-2 interns. gosh, but i so want to work there. also partly cuz the companies in phase two might be sucky? sigh... stressed about my tiger beer ad too i cant believe my idea for the print ad is just like that. gosh the only really happy thing today is that i bought a 99% similar replica of the topshop dress i wanted long ago at Sense, thanks to siting who told me abt it. i got it at half of topshop price, if i had bought from topshop that time. its super nice. (okay i cant find the pic now) but then i shd take the photo of the topshop one n the Sense one put side by side. i m sure they look the same! hmm.. its a really nice feeling to be able to get what you always wanted and tot you will never get le. its like a miracle. and i hope a similar miracle will happen in another part of my life i want something so badly and i just pray that God will lead the way if only i can sleep non-stop so that i can stop thinking stop reminiscing its too painful and sad sometimes for me to take it if only i can sleep away my whole Dec so that i wont feel lonely what will the days ahead be like, i am scared to imagine i have to stay strong myself and thats so hard cuz i lost my posb when will i smile again happily? does love really end? can love end? if you truly love a person, will you still love that person even if you are no longer able to be with that person? what is really love? does love necessarily mean you have to be with that person? must love be a mutual thing for it to survive? if its only one-sided, is it still considered love? or just foolishness? if you are no longer with that person, will you love that person forever? if not, how do you stop loving? i have no answers will time tell? will time heal? do i want to be healed? do i want to forget? i actually dont i am a walking contradiction Signing off, no more ink. Labels: growing up, if love wasnt so atrocious I would have stayed blind, The more we study the more we discover our ignorance. but ignorance is bliss so we should study more. 0 wore their hearts on their sleeves Friday, October 26, 2007 2:16 PM
this beer ad, i dont know how they did it! haha. but its interesting to see human domino! 0 wore their hearts on their sleeves 2:15 PM
haha tis one helps to determine if the chick u are picking up is man or woman! clever joke! 0 wore their hearts on their sleeves 1:58 PM
This is done in real stephen chow style haha. funny..... his expression is classic. 0 wore their hearts on their sleeves Monday, October 22, 2007 1:54 PM
i stood up, and then i fell again maybe its best not to give myself any hope even if things seem to be positive for one or two days because i know i will just fall harder up to this moment i guess i still dont know what is going on what will happen it seems i have no control at all things will happen and its only my fate to accept them i really wonder if i can ever ever not feel the pain Signing off, no more ink. 0 wore their hearts on their sleeves Friday, October 12, 2007 9:03 AM
i hope not but i guess this is it after yesterday the celebration... everything is back to square 1 yesterday it was the most happy time again yet the saddest at the end of it because i felt even more unwilling to let go to let it be only and the last happy memory sometimes in life trying your best just may not give you anything there are times maybe you got to accept what cannot be changed i'm still holding on i guess but it takes 2 hands to clap and now i realise, i am nobody's number 1 in this world anymore i am just alone no one that i can call upon immed when i need them and not feeling scared that i am bothering them or taking up their time nobody's number 1... maybe i have to start learning all over again what it means like to live on my own... life just really throws you upside down and shake you till you wake. Signing off, no more ink. Labels: growing up, if love wasnt so atrocious I would have stayed blind 0 wore their hearts on their sleeves Tuesday, October 09, 2007 1:16 AM
i dont know each time i take one step forward, the next moment i will be taking two steps back i dont know what to do i know what i feel though i feel sucky, painful, and very sad i wish there's some way i could turn things around i'm so scared what if its really permanent? forever is not good in this case i screwed it up i hate myself i want to be strong but i want to remember everything too and i dont want to move on and i cant i will just spend everyday... feeling the same way.. thinking about what the next day will be like because now i am all alone i hate to find out that everything's gone collapsed. ruined. i pray and i hope things will work.... God give me strength please. and understanding of the matter. Signing off, no more ink. Labels: growing up, if love wasnt so atrocious I would have stayed blind 0 wore their hearts on their sleeves Friday, October 05, 2007 1:22 PM
my thoughts to give up is easy, to let go is difficult.. i just dont know anything anymore waited so long hoping things would improve but it has just been one rollercoaster ride after another 我感到好绝望。。。 Signing off, no more ink. 0 wore their hearts on their sleeves Thursday, October 04, 2007 11:49 PM
i <3> forever21 but i still want to be sweet 16! haha. just a joke.. hmm so my dress is here, because i went to meetup with the spree organiser and she smsed me saying she was there at the mrt with her bangla worker, i was shocked lah, was thinking what job she doing... and thought maybe she is quite old?? but when i saw her she looks really young, at most my age or abit older? and the bangla worker seems to stare right through me... made me very uncomfortable so i didnt look at him haha. but so weird huh, maybe she's a construction supervisor?? and she forgot to bring my the other dress down, which i am damn sure will fit cuz its an XS, so it better fit, or i am going for plastic surgery to bring my fats from my face, stomach and thighs and reallocate them to distribute evenly hahaha... anyone wanna sponsor for that? but anyway, as i really expected, the dress is too big for me :( sigh. i hope it can be altered. the auntie probably think i m a freak. already went to her for 3 alterings liao.. haha. not my fault that the us size S is so big what! grr.. but i probably cannot wear it next week as planned. sad. lucky i already have another dress that i plan to wear haha! this is gorgeous lor seriously and i think i will sell it when one day i become a beggar. lol.  and so i'm a happy girl in terms of what i own, but in other matters, i have no idea at all. sometimes when i feel like i am at the point of giving up, somehow things will happen so that i get pulled back into the circle again. and round and round it just goes on, not knowing when it can stop. and i m super stressed because i have a zillion projects, foc budget to plan, a zillion 21st bday celebrations to go, a zillion presents to pay for, (nice andrew just gave me 2 cans of old retro a&w root beer, yeah i can drink wx's share. lol. jk!) and many things going to and forth in my mind, and the internship is another big headache because i so want to go to an ad firm or magazine. and i really want to get away from Sg, i feel the envy when i see my school mates, esp those who already went for instep before, going away to GIP india/china next sem again. its like must be damn fun or an eye-opener thats why they keep going overseas right. no doubt they must be real rich lah, but i was thinking 'so now i will be the only one in this mini cs who didnt travel overseas during my 4 years in ntu!!' i never do any crazy impulsive things when it comes to school. only when it comes to shopping. super unsatisfied. i am too sheltered, too reliant, too worry-fret, i should care less, think less and just be bloody selfish........... can i? sigh..... Signing off, no more ink. Labels: growing up, The more we study the more we discover our ignorance. but ignorance is bliss so we should study more., whoever invented fashion committed an atrocious crime 0 wore their hearts on their sleeves Tuesday, October 02, 2007 4:44 PM
give me $1k so i can own all these beauties from ASOS.. actually considering i like so many, maybe 1k also not enough! wont have captions for each of them, cuz i will just go WOW WOW WOW hahaha        seriously the gold pair on the left just takes my breath away.......  and this one too! the idea of classic beauty in shoes..   boots are sexy! and the blue one has pretty cut outs.. now for the weird ones.. i have never seen anything like that!   how to walk in this, i dont know, but its like a piece of art, very special!  This is cute, just zip around. haha  i dont normally like wedges, but the lacing up makes it very hot... think this is from Victoria secret. and notice how all the shoes are paired with a black dress? hence i will be on the lookout for fabulous black dresses next... haha... just like people spend their leisure time watching TV, i spend mine collecting pictures.. Signing off, no more ink. 0 wore their hearts on their sleeves Monday, October 01, 2007 12:38 AM
i cant stop thinking how they will fit me so nicely...   i have a heel fettish or maybe just a pointed heel fettish.... shit, and i've been dreaming of the $179 pair of nude peep-toe gorgeous heels from zara ever since i tried that on that day. it makes me smile. haha. end up i only got the $23.90 one haha! fake maryjanes! i was telling siting one day i must get a pair of christian louboutin heels that cost around near $1k, and she was like 'siao, i rather spend it on bags'... but i am not a bag person mah... okay.. now show the cute round shoes! the ballet pumps are super nice! and the rainbow one very girly!   and my claire taffeta dress is finally finally in singapore!!!!!!!!!!!! it better fit me right! because i saw a 99% similar one selling at topshop for $179 (i seem to have an affinity with this number! go buy 4D, 0179... and board bus 179.. okay leng) when i only got mine for like $40 inclusive of shipping from usa... i can buy 4 from f21 lah! a reminder of how it looks like! :)  and cotton on, which has very topshop like stuff, is super cool. 2 for $20 shorts, and yellow skinnies at $40. but the problem is they always run out of size, all size 10 or 12 left. grrrrrrr but nevertheless i found this super nice pencil skirt which can double up as a tube! lol.. 2-in-one, sure is a good buy! and that day i saw someone wearing this, lucky i never buy. i'm always thinking of the mileage i can get out of things i buy nowadays, esp with PI next sem! Labels: whoever invented fashion committed an atrocious crime 0 wore their hearts on their sleeves |
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