~songs in my head~
没有地球太阳还是会绕.But I don’t care what they say. I’m in love with you. I just wanna fall and lose myself Laughing so hard it hurts like hell Forget about everything and run away, yeah ~ MOTTO ~ :: if you have tried your best, there's no need for regrets. :: ~ THOUGHTS ~ By ourselves we are too weak to hold our own even for a moment. "And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God" (Romans 8:28) For what it's worth, it was worth all the while. "God has given, God has taken, blessed be the name of God" (Job 1:21) "I know what I’m doing. I have it all planned out – plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for.” (Jeremiah 29:11) Hit Counters |
:: juz taking a moment to remember ::
Tuesday, May 29, 2007 1:38 AM
why why why isnt it enough that i almost blacked out yest and just a short walk home i had to sit down 4 times and everyone looked so shiny and bright and then black and grey.. and then cuz of that i couldnt go to work, less income, and then i had to break my specs into 2 cuz i accidentally thought it was the weighing machine.. not literally of course. and then today!!! i am really damn sad i keep finding out that in life, we are always forced to move on, whether we like it or not. sometimes all we want is a slice of the past some remains but then sometings would always happen to cut off those memories i had many many documents/letters/irc logs/msn logs of friends and dear people saved in this folder which i didnt want to share with others so i omnipass it (decrypt with omnipass program) then happily i saved the folder to my thumbdrive and let wilfred help me reformat. alas! saving the folder does not save any bloody so much memories data inside i needed to save the user profile and now everthing is fu**king gone.. sorry but i am just too.... pissed at myself for decrypting it in the first place. arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh why God?? why cant i have just that bit of leftovers? isit really a sign that i should leave everything behind? but why why why cant i have just that teeny weeny bit of recollections... of things so dear that i lost, of friends so close that drifted, of people whom i am never going to speak to in that way again.. damn it u omnipass!!! Signing off, no more ink. Labels: growing up 0 wore their hearts on their sleeves Monday, May 21, 2007 9:43 AM
online shopping i am getting better and better at resisting online shopping. i can convince myself that hey it doesnt look so good, it may not suit me, and HK may sell it cheaper, blah... right now i am thinking 'nono.. that one may be nice but...' but i still wanna get this sandals http://www.gojane.com/20507.html in hot pink i think or green. still cannot decide. !!! haha so much for the above. i guess why online shopping hurts the pocket is because a) you tend to have to decide very fast before others snap it up b) you click/type okay faster than you can rationalise (the brain functions too slowly haha) c) everything just seems so nice because mostly you dont see them in stores but then again, you got to be smart/careful cuz some sell it more expensive than others and nowadays i am starting to point out 'eh this one online got.. cheaper somemore' to my friends. haha. but really la, f21 (the physical store) is damn overpriced can. i saw the exact same jacket (okay or 99% similar) online at USD $22.50 selling at $58 in the wisma store!! overpriced by $20++!! morale of the story: online still rocks :D wahaa Signing off, no more ink. Labels: whoever invented fashion committed an atrocious crime 0 wore their hearts on their sleeves Wednesday, May 16, 2007 12:47 AM
Your opinion matters Haha i guess when i have nothing to blog, i shall put up things i like and ask for your opinion cuz i hate to be in dilemmas.. partly also cuz i've been toying with the idea of making my fashion scrapebook after seeing lovely stuff on magazines and on asos.com that i have absolutely no $$ to buy till maybe 5 years later. it will work like a diary to help me remember the stuff i like, who knows maybe 20 years later i will go 'eek why did i ever like this?' haha.. anyway i wont necessarily buy these but i just wanna see which one is more popular or well-liked. so here goes.. pls tag! esp caddie, cuz i noe u very free at work HAHA! personally i like the plaid (not plain!) one.. :)    and this is so ... i dont know.. 70s? i love it!   and there was this very nice and worth buying bracelet from f21 and i want to hit myself for letting it go OOS cuz i was waiting for that stupid vest to appear. and it hasnt!  this has nothing to do with anything but the fact that i just cannot resist the picture.. so colorful!! but i think it was too ex and i didnt want to buy shoes online when they might not fit!   and you mean i didnt find out f21.com sells red/yellow jeans at half the price @ the local topshop till today!!?? but i want the hot pink one leh.. Signing off, no more ink. Labels: whoever invented fashion committed an atrocious crime 0 wore their hearts on their sleeves Monday, May 14, 2007 10:06 PM
Updates! so i moved into 05-1178 le. (and i 4got my beloved floor mat! :( ) got a big shock this morning when i opened the door and saw the 2 beds which were originally together, one on each side of the walls. i thought i opened the wrong door!! so they allocated me a sri lakan/indian roomie. she's s'pore PR actually. didnt see her the whole day till i got back just now. but i got no much grumbles lah. cuz she's friendly (i was too, cuz i know whether she's good/bad, i have to bear with her for at least 2 weeks mah), and we introduced ourselves immediately and talked abit. she's on IA anyway so also wont be around much. and after the pre-u stupid seminar, she will be moving back to her old room, and me too. so yay. i hope they will give me back single deluxe. cuz i change in the room so now having a roomie means i cannot do that! arghh.. ma fan. (pause) i was wondering why my laptop is so hot again den realise i forgot to plug in the mini fan (not that it helps alot but still..) oh another angry thing is that theres either that the stupid washing machine was faulty or that someone bloddy idiot went to stop my washing. cuz i put my clothes in to wash before dinner. after dinner, i put my hand in to take them out and argh, soapy feeling so i wash them again, and saw jieming at tv lounge and decided to watch "Deal or no deal" with him while waiting.. then i went back my clothes were in my basket on the floor STILL soapy. then i put them back into the machine, wic was empty, and press spin. nothing happened for a long long time. crap so i went to the other room and many of the machines were empty (yay). but guess what i found that 2 of my white tees were stained. one yellow yellow one brown brown. crap i have no freaking idea what happened but if its due to another human being, u bloody idiot hope bird shit falls on u. cuz i m sure its not my own clothes fault as i have nothing that will bleed color! and now i am v sad cuz one tshirt is the "friends dont let friends talk to ugly guys" and the other is my formal button shirt for work! arrrrghh.. (pause. i go collect clothes! wish me luck!) okay. so my friends shirt is miraculously white and clean while my formal shirt is still damn yellow. eee looks like someone urined on it! sigh.. that shirt i remember i bought it for CNY 3 or 4 years ago haha. dont know if bleach will help anot. any1 has bleach (not the anime or comic okay) pls tell me! okay today korean was intensive as usual. we expanded our vocab greatly, but i guess its more fun cuz we learn things that can apply in daily life such as numbers, months etc. so my number is 'gu yil yil yi sam gu gu ***' in korean! (just in case any stranger knows korean and go anyhow prank call me, i screened the last number haha) i guess grammer and sentence structure, and particle use are the most cheem one. just like we have 'of', 'the' and 'a' in English, they have particles too. we had another quiz today. and sw and i were like 'GG!!' cuz all of them sounds similar. i was like playing tikam. hmm i really cannot wait to go to HK! and there are a few tings i need to do but i can never get down to doing cuz i am so lazy. online shopping has been rather dull recently. was caught btwn the 2 tees below. i like the right one cuz it says "in your wildest dreams" which suits me cuz i m always having the wildest dreams. but in the end i didn buy it and it went OOS anyway. the save the drama one is pretty cute huh haha.. but i dont wear alot of tees so i dont think i will buy it unless its on sale.   okay next up are two that i want to buy but have not yet cuz i am still waiting for f21 to come up with its new stocks.. so long :( the one on the right is called metro tunic. haha. really like the geometric thingy. i have been crazy abt prints recently and i just love the zebra prints heels i saw at novo that day! a bit ex tho' so we will see how. and i m so sad i missed out the very fabulous and classy titus watch which was 50% off due to mother's day. now if i buy it is $389. freaking ex. but its gold frame combined with white straps.   Oh well, i think i must save $$ if not i go HK will come back empty-handed! haha! i cant wait for KTV. all the ktv tunes in my head. to ma na yo! (see u again) Signing off,no more ink. Labels: whoever invented fashion committed an atrocious crime, why must we label everything? 0 wore their hearts on their sleeves Wednesday, May 09, 2007 1:07 AM
fighting the blues i dont know why but these 2 days i have been feeling blue its like i have no drive at all i do things aimlessly, habitually, and addicted to online shopping but not buying anything. just looking and looking. not knowing for what, or why. i feel like i dont know how to be alone anymore silence is deafening i equate being alone as loneliness and i become even more afraid of loneliness yet i went shopping alone after work taking pleasure in that in the sea of faces, none were familiar to me and i was nobody's friend isit because i have become over-reliant on others isit that i have lost myself? i want to be strong and independent like before i dont know who i am, what i did, why things became this way i feel very uncertain, like living on false hope not knowing when happiness will burst maybe i am avoiding things and sorting out of thoughts i keep living in the past dreams, nightmares, memories all rolled into one images of past teachers, forgotten classmates, lost lovers, friends that drifted away, places that exist with meanings only known to myself, things that happened... but i realise memories are very transient they fade easily but words are more physical if i knew that memories would fade and that i remember less and less vividly with time, i would have recorded every single detail of my life. from primary school to now so that i will remember why i feel closer to a certain primary school friend vs another who i vaguely remember being frens with since PY5 (kindergarden) and i also remember counting we were friends for 7 years at primary school. so that i will remember the people who i let slipped from my life better and the things we did tog so that i will.. i duno if i am right to say this.. so that i will take a different path.. the choice or decision that you make will lead you to a different set of more decisions, depending on what you choose, which eventually alters your life because of the choice you first made. i dont know if you ever read this kind of book, but it was my favorite kind of book when i was young. some books allow you to make choices and then lead you to different endings based on what you chose. eg: the story may go 'you meet a bear in the forest, what would you do?' and you may choose to run away, or confront the bear, or climb up a tree, etc. and when you choose one of them, you will be asked to turn to a certain page where you make other decisions. its really fun, but i havent seen that kind of book for a long long time. i know this is a very.. morbid post.. but i do have happy news i am going to HK!!!!!!! yay..... the thought of it cheers me up a little, although its in end June. $10 boots, here i come. i still dont know how to say bye/see you in korean, but let me say 감사합니다 'kam sa ha ni da' for reading. haha. hangul (korean's alphabet) is really hard to pronounce! easier to read. and 사랑해 'sarang hae' means i love you gtg. work tml again. hope can wake up. Signing off, no more ink. Labels: growing up, i have atrocious friends 0 wore their hearts on their sleeves |
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