a moment to remember

~songs in my head~

没有地球太阳还是会绕.

But I don’t care what they say. I’m in love with you.

I just wanna fall and lose myself Laughing so hard it hurts like hell Forget about everything and run away, yeah

~ MOTTO ~
:: if you have tried your best, there's no need for regrets. ::

~ THOUGHTS ~
By ourselves we are too weak to hold our own even for a moment.

"And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God" (Romans 8:28)

For what it's worth, it was worth all the while.

"God has given, God has taken, blessed be the name of God" (Job 1:21)

"I know what I’m doing. I have it all planned out – plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for.” (Jeremiah 29:11)

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:: juz taking a moment to remember ::

Tuesday, August 25, 2009 12:48 AM

turn to me

im sorry baby
cause i cried again after reading your latest entry
your words have this powerful effect
they tend to overwhelm me
in a good way.

im sorry baby
cause i feel so selfish
that i rambled on and on about my own stories
not realising your silence was just a coverup for your troubles
not realising that you need me to coax you to express yourself
or even just realising you are not just tired
im sorry cause i am such a dork!!

i only realised after i saw your sms and your post
i feel like an idiot
i should talk less, listen more
i should really learn from you
be more sensitive
i need to learn to read into you
and not just skim the surface

im sorry about the bad news
but everything will be fine
if they are not, at least i will be here to help in anyway i can

i feel so selfish
sorry that i keep looking inward into my own world
i promise i will be looking out for you more
just like how you always take care of me
the most minute of details
like rushing to get me a knife at my slightest mention of it
i promise i will remember and appreciate
and not take for granted all these
i will also not take advantage of your niceness
infact i hope to give more in return

pls, darling, allow me, and grant me a little space in your empty heart
you know where you belong
you know you can rest your weary head on my little shoulder
it may not be big or strong enough for you to lean on 24/7
but it is a reliable one
dont turn to silence
dont hold back
just turn to me...
even if you cant find the right words at that moment
just turn to me, and rest your weary head on your shoulder, and give your weary troubled heart to me for keeps
i will nourish and heal any wounds

the following song is for you, howie

When I'm lost in the rain,
In your eyes I know I'll find the light to light my way.
And when I'm scared and losing ground;
When my world is going crazy, you can turn it all around.

And when I'm down you're there; pushing me to the top.
You're always there; giving me all you've got.

For a shield from the storm;
For a friend; for a love
To keep me safe and warm,
I turn to you.
For the strength to be strong;
For the will to carry on;
For everything you do;
For everything that's true,
I turn to you.

When I lose my will to win,
I just reach for you and I can reach the sky again.
I can do anything,
'Cause your love is so amazing; 'cause your love inspires me.

And when I need a friend, you're always on my side;
Giving me faith that gets me through the night.

For a shield from the storm;
For a friend; for a love
To keep me safe and warm,
I turn to you.
For the strength to be strong;
For the will to carry on;
For everything you do;
For everything that's true,
I turn to you.

For the arms to be my shelter through all the rain;
For truth that will never change;
For someone to lean on;
for a heart I can rely on through anything;
For that one who I can run to....
I turn to you.

For a shield from the storm;
For a friend; for a love
To keep me safe and warm,
I turn to you.
For the strength to be strong;
For the will to carry on;
For everything you do;
For everything that's true,
I turn to you.

For a shield from the storm;
For a friend; for a love
To keep me safe and warm,
I turn to you.
For the strength to be strong;
For the will to carry on;
For everything you do;
For everything that's true...

For everything you do;
For everything that's true,
I turn to you...

goodbye or see you,
I'll be your best kept secret or your biggest mistake.

Labels: if love wasnt so atrocious I would have stayed blind

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Monday, August 24, 2009 8:53 AM

Up and coming

The weekend passed so quickly
With an uplanned stayover
And having to meddle with work here & there
Lately we have hecked wht others, in particular colleagues, thought or knew about us
It feels good to ignore them
Do what we want without caring about gossip or judgment
Now that facebok is officially the world's loudest grapevine,
I'm sure and am glad tht we are in the open

Last fri clubbing was fun except music at zouk sucked so we moved to phuture
On hindsight we shd jus use our citibank card for free entry since zouk music was not to our taste
But I guess its getting abit boring to go thr except for mambo. Miss those wed nights seeing yewhong n kyon flaunt their much exaggerated moves haha..
Realised its damn hard to find anyone, both female and male, who is actually worth a second look
Or rather, will cause you to give them a second look
There ain't many good-looking ppl in singapore sadly
I've seen a few eyecatching guys before
But not for girls..strangely my babe criteria seems more stringent than my hunk criteria
Haha its just a random thought anyway

3 more days to bangkok soóoö excited
I hope I wnt be disappointed with the shopping
Earrings, dresses and shorts are on my to buy list
Not so sure about shoes there so we shall see;)
I just cnt wait for wed night when we shall 'ton' (secondary sch slang ahaha)
Awaiting our morning flight
The first night we are gg to share the room
Spend the night with my kuku to reminisce abt our roomie days
I just really miss hall life man
All the freedom to stay out or stay up
Eating supper and enjoying next door gossip
I wanna be an undergrad again.....

I guess I shall post again after bangkok
27082009 - 31082009
Wheeee no work for one week
I deserve this break so much

goodbye or see you,
I'll be your best kept secret or your biggest mistake.

Labels: i have atrocious friends, if love wasnt so atrocious I would have stayed blind

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Thursday, August 20, 2009 7:28 PM

Beyonce

Every night I rush to my bed
With hopes that maybe I'll get a chance to see you
When I close my eyes
I'm goin outta my head
Lost in a fairytale
Can you hold my hands and be my guide

Clouds filled with stars cover your skies
And I hope it rains
You're the perfect lullaby
What kinda dream is this

You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I, don't wanna wake up from you
Sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Somebody pinch me, your loves to good to be true
My guilty pleasure I ain't goin no where
Baby long as you're here
I'll be floating on air cause you're my
You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I, don't wanna wake up from you

I mention you when I say my prayers
I wrap you a around all of my thoughts
Boy you my temporary high
I wish that when I wake up you're there
So wrap your arms around me for real
And tell me you'll stay by side

Clouds filled with stars cover your skies
And I hope it rains
You're the perfect lullaby
What kinda dream am is this

You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I, don't wanna wake up from you
Sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Somebody pinch me, your loves to good to be true
My guilty pleasure I ain't goin no where
Baby long as you're here
I'll be floating on air cause you're my
You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I, don't wanna wake up from you

Tattoo your name across my heart
So it will remain
Not even death can make us part
What kind of dream is this?!

You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I, don't wanna wake up from you
Sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Somebody pinch me, your loves to good to be true
My guilty pleasure I ain't goin no where
Baby long as you're here
I'll be floating on air cause you're my
You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I, don't wanna wake up from you

recently the radio keep playing this song.. i like it!
its similar to my usual sign-off right...

A sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare,
Either way I don't wanna wake up from you

this can be my new sign-off haha...

Labels: why must we label everything?

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9:42 AM

Daring to dream

Next week this time, I would be in bangkok
I am anticipating
So excited for many reasons
First bk trip
First overseas trip without parents
First trip with my kukubird (tho japan wld have been even better! Hehh)
First trip with you
A week long worth of waking up to see you smile back at me
Beware tho, I can be grouchy and quiet in the mornings ;D

Anyway anyhow I'm going to give it another serious shot at online selling
If my seniors can give up their jobs to do it and even sell wholesale,
I'm not the only crazy one
It might be a risk but like typical cliches - we are only young once, and we can afford to try
Every rise and fall in life contributes to experience..

So officially I am serving 1 mth notice
Going to be ooj (out of job) soon but I feel relieved knowing I m getting out of this shitty place
Tho I must say I still have the passion to stay in this industry
Honestly I wldnt mind working in another bigger agency like ddb
But if only they wld hire me la haha
Local companies suck.

Enough of work..
We are going clubbing this week, yayy
I'm glad we still meetup cuz honestly I miss hall life and those crazy ppl like mad..
Tho we might not be so close as to meet every month but at least when we meet we have lots of fun
Somehow everytime ard tis time. There will be a breakup season
If my friend you are reading this and knw I'm talking abt u..
Cheerup. learn from ur mistakes and move on..
I feel sad to see u affected, afterall u seemed happier with her than the ex
Take care, aunt agony (or rather, the love guru as u like to say) is always here ahah

There are many nice things to buy
Aldo below $100 black suede stilettos
Topshop overpriced $113 lace dress
Gmarket cheap thrills
AA long sleeved u back dress in forest (which led me to work my brain thinking of cut out sleeves.. I'm obsessed with cut outs.. and why is jessica stroup - silver from 90210 - and lindsay lohan so pretty.. I wana be a hollywood star and have a personal stylist to deck me in designer wear too..herve ledger and chanel pls.)
I sidetrack......
I shall wait for bangkok..

7 more days..

goodbye or see you,
I'll be your best kept secret or your biggest mistake.

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Tuesday, August 18, 2009 9:01 AM

But you

Who's going to complete my world
Who's going to take me so high
But you

Who would put myself before and above everything
Who would take 2 hr trips just to see me awhile more
But you

Who would wake up at 5am with me to go to work
Who would enjoy reading quietly with me just holding hands
But you

Who would bring me to romantic places to enjoy the breeze and crashing waves
Who would remember little quirks of mine, like not eating cut fishcake, and so meticulously remembering to ask the auntie not to add them in
But you

Who would make a series of animal (pigeon included) sounds repeatedly just coz it makes me laugh
Who would say I smell so great, even if the smell is described as metallic
But you

Who else would manage to trick me with a forecoming hug to say HELLO?! to my head
Putting an ear to listen to my thoughts
Who else would have even thought of this cute antic
But you

Whose heart is so big and accomodating
Whose patience never runs out
Whose understanding do I seek when I am troubled
But you

For you
I let down my guard
For you
I pick up my little pieces of faith and try to sew them tog
For you
I see that uncertainty may be a beauty and a gift in itself
For you
I am a generous lover
For you
Your head can rest on mine when it feels weary

For this moment and the ones ahead
I thank God, wherever he may be or not in my life
Cuz I'm just very blessed
And I accept his grace upon me

goodbye or see you,
I'll be your best kept secret or your biggest mistake.

0 wore their hearts on their sleeves

Wednesday, August 12, 2009 9:26 AM

Sick cycle carousel

I just read your blog
Entry titled 'in an instance' was really well written
Enjoyable to read and reflect upon

I discovered as well..
'Faith to let go'
And how it takes million of ouces of courage to let go
After we put in so much strength holding on
And I realised now,
Having a job is not unlike in a relationship
It will not work well without faith and a clear direction
It will not work well if there is only dread and no happiness
the same reasons why we often hold on to unhappy relationships (ie. Afraid tht we cnt find someone else, habit/comfort zone..) apply to why I m holding on onto my job

But sometimes instead of berating myself
I ought to be less hard on myself
And give myself a break
Hope to discover some place where I can grow
And not some other marketplace
I ought to give myself a little pat of applause and a little courage nudge

goodbye or see you,
I'll be your best kept secret or your biggest mistake.

Labels: a woman's work is never done, growing up

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Tuesday, August 11, 2009 8:40 AM

The things you say & do

Yesterday he made me smile with his plans
Today he made me cry with his words
Words can't express how lucky I think I'm

I'm glad I managed - be cruel to be kind.

It was a Happy 23rd.

goodbye or see you,
I'll be your best kept secret or your biggest mistake.

Labels: if love wasnt so atrocious I would have stayed blind

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Monday, August 10, 2009 10:07 AM

I hate img
I fucking hate dreaming of black pepper chicken wraps
And launch mechanisms
Or my client asking me when the new concepts will be out in my dream

I fucking hate that my weekends and leaves/MC are disturbed
By 14 bloody missed calls. And tons of sms to ask me frivalous stuff
Damn call the bloody office
I don't call u or text u on ur leave too
I hate dreaming of work almost everyday
I hate waking up and realising I just saw pr****lia in it
Or fucking black pepper chicken wic I dreamt of twice already.

Hate this mental stress.

goodbye or see you,
I'll be your best kept secret or your biggest mistake.

Labels: a woman's work is never done

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2:23 AM

Happy 23rd to myself

I wish I was still sweet 16
I really do haha
Somehow as the years go by
My birthdays don't seem as exciting anymore
But nonetheless I think I'm lucky to have ppl celebrating with me each year

Every yr on my bday
I will get joy and disappointment
As well as unexpected wishes
This year surprisingly I din get wishes from the usual suspects
Maybe cuz they are attached alrdy or maybe they have forgotten me as their friend
Guys can be so practical haha..

Instead I got a couple of sms tat I prob won't have tot of getting
One was really off. Sounded like a national day greeting
Something abt wishing me the best in my new life as part of singapore's workforce
Haha. Coming from the same person who said didn't thk u wld rmb whn I msg him on his bday last yr
If u have nth to say I thk a simple happy bday wld hv worked haa
Anyway thanks to those who rmb ;)
I guess the best is nt to have expectations so tht whoever wish me will seem like a surprise

Esp I wld like to say thank u to the person who managed to be the 1st to wish me;)
My birthday will b remembered.
I'm always so blessed.

Aha as I'm typing this I got a greeting fr an old fren titi
Makes me smile.

May my 24th bday be spent with the same ppl I love

goodbye or see you,
I'll be your best kept secret or your biggest mistake.

Labels: birthdays

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Thursday, August 06, 2009 8:52 AM

The game ain't over

I think I am starting to remember; how good it can be
I think I am starting to experience those flutters in my stomach all over again

I shan't
pretend nothing happened

I shan't
resist the good

I shan't
put out the magic with my past demons

I shan't even
put up a fight

Whatever it is
Whatever may happen
Only time will tell
Just let me crumble and find my only form of escape

-

Today is my last day
Of the work week
Tmr is fri and the upcoming long weekend
Yeeepee.

Today is shuen's bday
Happy 23rd dear girl.

Today I am wearing what I wore
The day we witnessed the beginning of sunrise
The orange streaks across the slow lighted sky
And we were walking towards it
It sure seems like a good sign ;)

P.s. I typed this 2 times! Cuz blogger failed to publish it.
But somehow it didn't take me much to rmb what I wrote
Freshly etched in my mind

goodbye or see you,
I'll be your best kept secret or your biggest mistake.

Labels: if love wasnt so atrocious I would have stayed blind

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Wednesday, August 05, 2009 8:29 AM

Of secrets and tears

I like how you can't keep a secret from me
Your face briming of excitment

I like how you remember what I like and what I don't
Your brain filled with details

I like how you smile
Your teeth neatly in a row

I like how I feel
It is so close yet so far

If I could write a book, i would like you to be in it.

And

I like how joy and tears come together
Those tears of joy mist our eyes

I like how our making merry form euphoric shout outs
Embarassing but enjoyable
On the mrt platform

On such a road,
There is no u-turn.

We travel as the roads emerge
We avoid as the bumps appear
We deal as the motion sickness sets in
We overcome all there is blocking the journey
To the destination
And we never say goodbye.

Does it make a good read?
My book titled 'Of Secrets & Tears'

goodbye or see you,
I'll be your best kept secret or your biggest mistake.

Labels: dreams, why must we label everything?

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Sunday, August 02, 2009 11:09 PM

im feeling emo again

boo

emo about lots of stuff
about not being a student anymore
about not staying in hall anymore
about not being part of FOC anymore
about having to work again tmr
about how uncertain i am
about how i am living one day @ a time
about my spoilt laptop keyboard (have to type this with e help of on-screen keyboard oherwise his is wha u will be reading because e damn important T cannot be used!) arggghh drives me crazy 2 type and im forced 2 replace 'to' wif '2' and 'the' wif 'e'...
i have 2 get a new laptop soon cuz my baby fujitsu is dying. speaking of which 2 add oil 2 my fury ntu sent me letter 2 get me 2 pay for my then laptop loan.
i hate typing like tt ... it is so IRC hahaha...
emo about this laptop dying.. been thru much wif me
still rmb how i accidentally gave it an instant mashed potato treat at 3am just before i finish my damn presentation
end up crying and waking wenxin up haha...
and have 2 use her com instead.

i am also sad
about not being able 2 fulfill my online shopping urge
yet strangely euphoric when i get my fingers 2 close that damn page
and tell myself i don nd another piece of clothing
but i suspect is juz because i hate knowing tt i could have been paying half e price if i could have continued wif OGD...
the inner me very much envy those who can study and have an online biz @ e same time
the inner me very much wishes to drop my job and set up a brand new venture
i have this dream that *you could design and sell tees for both female & males
and *i could manufacture my own stuff too.
tho at this very moment i will be pretty contented 2 just be able 2 sell any clothes online
instead of dreaming about stupid stars and all other work related crap!

siting and i still have quite abit of stuff left
i must strive 2 clear these and maybe have a clean slate after i come back from BK!:)
i already tot of the name! pausenplay.com
HAHAHAHHA :D

i ought 2 find back the old me...
strong, believer, having faith...
not the cynical me i was almost 2 years ago.
i hate not knowing where i am heading.
or having my plans disrupted.
awful.

goodbye or see you,
I'll be your best kept secret or your biggest mistake.

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Saturday, August 01, 2009 2:01 PM

I'm

Hungry
Down with flu
Happy that I gotta sing ktv last night with my colleagues

They have got powerful voices k
We have got a eason chan, xiao jing teng and zhang hui mei power voice
Unlike my squeaky off pitch singing haha
Haven sang ktv for so long.. yest was the 1st time I went singing without csbs
I miss singing with csbs cuz our frequency of songs are similar (aka all the old outdated aongs) and the self get high songs like lian ai ing etc
Nonetheless it was a great night

Today I'm at boon lay. Haha..
Going to walk ard jp2..
A good sat is awaiting..
And nx weekend is super long break for me
I took leave on 7th..
So fri sat sun mon, gonna be an awesome weekend for my 23rd:)

goodbye or see you,
I'll be your best kept secret or your biggest mistake.

Labels: birthdays, why must we label everything?

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on repeat mode

Leona Lewis Lyrics

mine

abandoned blog I
abandoned blog II

the past