~songs in my head~
没有地球太阳还是会绕.But I don’t care what they say. I’m in love with you. I just wanna fall and lose myself Laughing so hard it hurts like hell Forget about everything and run away, yeah ~ MOTTO ~ :: if you have tried your best, there's no need for regrets. :: ~ THOUGHTS ~ By ourselves we are too weak to hold our own even for a moment. "And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God" (Romans 8:28) For what it's worth, it was worth all the while. "God has given, God has taken, blessed be the name of God" (Job 1:21) "I know what I’m doing. I have it all planned out – plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for.” (Jeremiah 29:11) Hit Counters |
:: juz taking a moment to remember ::
Monday, December 31, 2007 5:41 PM
This song is very nice. and landy's voice is very warm. the last 20 secs when she looks like she's going to cry is very sad and touches my heart. Labels: youtube 0 wore their hearts on their sleeves 2:52 PM
goodbye to 2007. today, being the very last day of 2007, brings with it mixed feelings from me i am relieved 2007 is ending, after so much unhappiness but also sad that the happy times are gone too as 2008 comes along, there's more uncertainty but also more room for opportunities 366 days next year, with an additional Feb 29 for us to cherish i hope at the end of 2008, i will feel happier than this year thinking back, 2007 has been such a long journey memories of the past 6 months especially linger in my head good times and bad times as i think back to how i spent my dec holidays i think i couldnt have asked for more i spent it happier than i thought even though there were moments of darkness thank you my friends who accompanied me, comforted me and made the holidays and the festive season bearable and even enjoyable:) and shuen, hope canada's not too cold. rmb to wear ur 10% red dot C&K boots wor. forgot to ask if u brought the rose scarf i gave u haha. but its very thin also. take care, and happy new year 2008! it will be a gd year for u:) missing u fr SG!! i shall try to embrace the future its hard to not hope but maybe i shall understand whats best for me as time passes Signing off, no more ink. Labels: why must we label everything? 0 wore their hearts on their sleeves Friday, December 28, 2007 11:59 AM
a quick one! my results are not fantastic but i guess they will do wasnt as bad as i imagined but now i realise how the so called "just letters/grades" can affect gpa so much my gpa go down after last sem of bliss :( oh well life goes on everyone else also dont seem to do very well except for some friends of mine eg yan liang who said "i got no As :(" but turned out he got 3 A-. hello! A- is still A. haha. and mr chua mx who got tons of As and complained about one B+! zzz.... and another kuku kk (kkkk woah!) who got 4.875 GPA at NUS. wth. i got smart ass friends. anyway yest on the way home there was this malay girl begging for $$ at first i just walked away cuz i thought she was selling stuff then after that i decide to donate $2 i was feeling very sorry for her and i went up to her n put the $2 in her bag and pat her on the arm and said take care. dont know why but i almost teared after that. i think i was feeling very sad cuz shuenyun left for canada plus i feel that the malay girl must be super desperate i dont think shes a cheat ba i mean, to actually stand there and ask for $$ either ur face is so thick that bullets cannot penetrate or u are really desperate. so sad, that in singapore, we still see such people. yesterday we sent shuenyun, and we were almost late rch airport she almost going in already a last hug and then no more sy for 5 mths ++ sigh. cried on wed at the farewell at breeks and jiaen scolded me for being silly and i just said 'u shut up la u' hahah and then we keep joking about that and then after that was zouk super fun and seh, esp the retro songs but i know what went on thank u my friends for such an enjoyable night my last outing b4 internship nx week (i have less than 1 week, sad! but also exciting) then woke up, had flu, went town with siting bumped into victor n shibin yummy dinner at ichiban boshi tog went topman and fool ard haha. siting and i bought shoes n bags my chanel-inspired bag and her kisslock bag. yay. and suede black flats, fit for all occasions. okay back to hall for foc meeting liao! my busy week! Signing off, no more ink. Labels: i have atrocious friends, The more we study the more we discover our ignorance. but ignorance is bliss so we should study more. 0 wore their hearts on their sleeves 12:27 AM
damn scared because the results are apparently out and ntu system is down because 10,000000 million ntu students are all trying to check i dont have the courage to, as usual i am not the kind who will chiong to login and check my results and especially not so this time i feel super scared not knowing what kind of results i will see not even daring to imagine or expect after exams so far i never allowed myself to think about the results too much now 28th dec has come! gosh... wanted to update but now too scared to.. shall wait awhile more.. i guess i must face reality all by myself le.. at most cry to sleep, right. Signing off, no more ink. 0 wore their hearts on their sleeves Saturday, December 22, 2007 9:28 PM
photos galore 2     okay lets play spot the difference. the photos in which i was wearing black vs the photos in which i wear white. guess what first... this will explain what 'operation' i went today. should be easy guess for those who know me n my features well. *big hint*     dq and i went to ecp and found these old kiddish rides. very nostalgic. haha got one of them which i forgot to take a photo of is this ride that u sit and can swing on the chair and it will go in a circular motion. very fun. i rmb taking it when i was younger.   notice i was wearing the same dress i sold. haa.  saw this together with liro.. haha we laughed till peng. 2cm sales assistant? i think no1 went for interview cuz everytime they went in people like us would have stomped them flat under our shoes without knowing. haha.. ok la the shop name is 2 cm. what a funny name in the 1st place.  and to illustrate how big my nephew is now.. heres one photo. he is damn cute. i shot this video of him laughing when my brother sings "if u're happy n u know it... clap your hands" song. and his laughter v cute and his expression is priceless cuz u get 2 see his 4 tiny teeth. and its repetitive laughter.. abit spastic but v adorable. maybe i will find a way to upload onto youtube and den post it here?? but now he talks alot of glibberish language and has the tendency to be violent. gosh i love him so much. i want my own boy! haha. i m sexist.  lastly, i wanna pay a tribute to my friend shuenyun, who is leaving for canada nx thurs.. Dearest shuenyun, its been a great time with you these 2 months. from studying at ntu lib and changi airport, to shopping at bugis, to lunch at my soup spoon, and all the support we've given each other.. thanks dear for being there. i m really sad that u are leaving already. still remember that we said (as we were mugging for exams) that u stil got 1 month and we will treasure tt 1 mth and go out alot. we tried our best to meet as often as possible le, but sadly time still flew like its none of our biz. 5 mths is not short nor that long. but i know for sure i will miss you alot, and by the time u come back u dont have to study liao, can grad le. so envious haha. i will still be on internship. while u come back with 1,000 coaches (coach bags haha) and 500 ang mohs, and 250 dollars hahaha.. everyone seems to be leaving. sigh. i hope i can go korea for gss too. but anyway, i am glad i gained this friendship, i hope we will stay close like now.. and i <3> Take care lots.. i'm gonna be thinking of u and be v sad on nx weekend.. but be strong, stay level-headed, and remember, you have come so far, and you will continue to walk and create a brand new life. hope to see a very different yet same you when u return. :)   okay. now time to reveal what operation i did. i went for eyebrow embroidery just now. its quite painful but bearable i guess. imagine a pilot g tech pen scratching n poking you nonstop and sometimes a brush scrubbing against your skin and then people rubbing your 'orh chea' (blueblack) and then your skin stings that kinda feeling overall but seeing the arch in my eyebrows and that they no longer droop down i feel happy even tho i think i look like la pi xiao xing but my sis n shuen n en says its nice haha hope it wont fade easily if nt have to go thru the pilot pen experience again! 1 mth later have to return.. gosh. i hope i dn have to draw my brows anymore! tho its super ex, and bit painful but i thk i dn really regret. MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL. to you too, far away you. Signing off, no more ink. Labels: growing up, i have atrocious friends 0 wore their hearts on their sleeves 2:13 AM
From 2 Days in Paris. this movie seems interesting. thought of watching. anyone? the following is an excerpt from the ending. Marion: It always fascinated me how people go from loving you madly to nothing at all, nothing. It hurts so much. When I feel someone is going to leave me, I have a tendency to break up first before I get to hear the whole thing. Here it is. One more, one less. Another wasted love story. I really love this one. When I think that its over, that I'll never see him again like this... well yes, I'll bump into him, we'll meet our new boyfriend and girlfriend, act as if we had never been together, then we'll slowly think of each other less and less until we forget each other completely. Almost. Always the same for me. Break up, break down. Drunk up, fool around. Meet one guy, then another, fuck around. Forget the one and only. Then after a few months of total emptiness start again to look for true love, desperately look everywhere and after two years of loneliness meet a new love and swear it is the one, until that one is gone as well. There's a moment in life where you can't recover any more from another break-up. And even if this person bugs you sixty percent of the time, well you still can’t live without him. And even if he wakes you up every day by sneezing right in your face, well you love his sneezes more than anyone else's kisses. Signing off, no more ink. Labels: why must we label everything? 0 wore their hearts on their sleeves 2:04 AM
photos galore  i look spastic haha. quite like my $3 REAL vintage dress. i went to tailor some clothes and the auntie said the cloth is at least 20-30 yrs old. wow even older than me sia. i wouldnt have bought it myself but my mother said $3 only buy la. haha. can i say no?  box you. *gasp* but shuen ur acting no gd:P mine better! one take nia!   so she became psychotic whack the penguin. poor penguin!  eh whos the milkmaid beside me? hearts my lovely scarf from some man shop. dont care. its unisex and equality nowadays.  okay better shot. haha.  how long is the hot air balloon?  yummy fried mars bars! now more expensive!  outside taka area. the story of jesus christ. loved but sold the dress cuz i got sian of wearing it. haha.  lastly the very adorable penguin that i got for office xmas exchange and i was v sad to give it away. haha. its super cute. lazy to upload the rest. its 2:27 am and i am tired. wondering what time is it over there. Signing off, no more ink. Labels: i have atrocious friends 0 wore their hearts on their sleeves Friday, December 21, 2007 6:38 PM
madness i am going for the 'operation' tomorrow finally i am scared lah its not anything major like open up my heart or giving birth but its my first big op and it will be disastrous if it goes wrong cross my fingers and wish myself luck! wonder if i have a low or high pain threshold? refering to physical pain for emotional pain i think i got that figured out as for what op am i going for exactly see if people realise it or not haha Signing off, no more ink. Labels: why must we label everything? 0 wore their hearts on their sleeves Thursday, December 20, 2007 3:54 PM
thats it? i am stunned by myself the reaction i have upon receiving that sms to tell me u are leaving its another xmas without you but this time, it hurts more cuz i know that even after xmas i will still be without you unlike last year you picked me up from watsons after you reached sg and now i m sitting here thinking thats it? thats all we have to say to each other not even a merry xmas... just plain facts i know just how much i mean but its so so different from the rest of your smses in my phone its times like this that reveal i am still very weak when i find that i still have the capacity for tears Signing off, no more ink. 0 wore their hearts on their sleeves Sunday, December 16, 2007 4:39 PM
an open letter, written with a splitting headache i always thought i will be part of your life and you, part of mine. i always talked to you about others, now i talk to others about you i never imagined that ever since we got tog, that there would be one day, this day, that we dont talk to each other everyday i never imagined one day, this day, that i would talk/think about our times tog using past tense others yes, but you, i thought, never. i thought i wont be telling others about us as if its all in the past that what we shared was special and nothing like the rest of the people around us was i too naive or just too blind i feel very skeptical now about relationships wondered how we could have been so happy and yet lost it all looking through photos how those smiles, hugs, comfort and outings are now replaced with tears, awkwardness, and resolution not to contact each other because we are not tog anymore you were my present and future but now i have to treat you like history just like many of the world's histories that we shouldnt forget, i dont want to forget either this history that means much to me are we slowly rewriting our lives? moving on without each other leaving behind the promises we made to each other i think back to almost 4 years ago, to how we absurdly met and i have this mad urge to run to you asking you if you remember you once said you never want to let go of my hand. such a long journey you know me on so many levels that i dont think i would open up to others so easily and then there are things that only we know hor baby hor? and i want to keep them that way would you remember the things we used to say, places we went, things we did, the songs we sang? i wish there could be a way to guarantee that we will never forget each other and i hope one day i will look at our photos with a smile glad that it all happened and be able to go out with you just enjoying each other's company because we once so understood each other maybe one day we will find that with time, we no longer understand each other so well, and feel distant but at this point, i still remember how close we were, the best of friends, and words were unnecessary at times if anything is possible in this world, would it be possible to regain everything that we have lost? we will find that out in due time Signing off, me and Tg Labels: growing up, if love wasnt so atrocious I would have stayed blind 0 wore their hearts on their sleeves Wednesday, December 12, 2007 10:31 PM
one week after (last entry) and i still feel pretty lost and out-0f-sorts do not know how to deal with the situation how to numb myself dont know what lies ahead only letting the past drag things down when things are already different as much as i want to return to the past i know things have changed and i shouldnt be stupid and foolish and hurt myself anymore but i yearn that kind of feeling comfort that i can never find it 100% elsewhere it took so long and so many tiny steps to reach that level and now its all gone today i happened to into perlini the jewellery shop and so many memories hit me when a link breaks physical objects no longer convey the same meaning. what can i do to have things like before again? Signing off, no more ink. 0 wore their hearts on their sleeves Tuesday, December 04, 2007 11:40 PM
moment of reflection work's dreadful today boring and stressful and unfriendly colleagues (or maybe its just me wahahha) anyway last sat i went to this place called mint cafe with con its some toy cafe that has a toy museum upstairs nice ambience and food! set lunch quite worth trying only $13.80 dessert (some caramel white pudding) was yummy shopping at bugis village bucket bag, more internship clothes, and alot of chit-chat & snaps and then a late movie with d & j we watched HERO! whee mu chun in this particular scene wore a navy blue hoodie and jeans very casual but somehow he can pull off that look without seeming sloppy hes damn cute, although i must admit he's getting old & not as gd as b4 matsu takako also... d called her auntie takako.. hahaha and then chit-chat at mac till 4plus again super tired the next day but had fun playing with isaac.. super cute n naughty now. hehe. and then had an interesting chat with someone on sunday. never quite thought that i will have that kind of conversation with that person ever. after so long, to find out the answers to questions i was curious about, is a nice feeling. dont know what to say, but just feel that God has his plans and he tends to reveal them step by step. although i dont know what God's plans are exactly, but i think that each day that passes bring me closer to knowing and the truth. less than 1 month before 2007 ends. as it ends it brings me both happy feelings yet sadness. it feels like a chapter in my life is closing, and a part of me is changed forever. but when one door closes, another door opens. i rmb leemei said this before. maybe life is about knowing when to grab opportunities. not knowing what i want in my life now, and the direction that it is heading towards, scares me a little. alot of my plans for the future have been cut short, and now i am left hanging hence i wish 2008 would be a new start, new chances, for me, myself and i. after so long, i made enough mistakes and learnt a great deal. hopefully i will not fall again. i hope that i will find a direction soon. the name valerie translates to of determined purpose. i like. p.s: when people leave my life, i still wish that God will cover them and wherever they go without me, i hope they will not go without God. and my sincere wish is that they will be safe in God's arms. all the best to them. Signing off, no more ink. Labels: growing up, i have atrocious friends 0 wore their hearts on their sleeves |
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