a moment to remember

~songs in my head~

没有地球太阳还是会绕.

But I don’t care what they say. I’m in love with you.

I just wanna fall and lose myself Laughing so hard it hurts like hell Forget about everything and run away, yeah

~ MOTTO ~
:: if you have tried your best, there's no need for regrets. ::

~ THOUGHTS ~
By ourselves we are too weak to hold our own even for a moment.

"And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God" (Romans 8:28)

For what it's worth, it was worth all the while.

"God has given, God has taken, blessed be the name of God" (Job 1:21)

"I know what I’m doing. I have it all planned out – plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for.” (Jeremiah 29:11)

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:: juz taking a moment to remember ::

Wednesday, May 26, 2010 11:36 PM

missing the main point

my house unit number 1331, came up in 4D results again!
last week was first prize, today is consolation.
for the first time i went to get some numbers with jacq & sky today...
bought 4896 and 0796 haha.
cause parry taught me 4896 =西北够力
and i came up with 796 = 及够力 (my malaysian cousins love to say that)
hehe.... though they didnt strike, but it was just for fun.

after work, jacq, sky and i went for sakae sushi.
originally i was planning to go home cuz i was having abit headache due to the super hot weather... but jacq wasnt feeling happy and had lots to complain about :D so decided that we shall all go for dinner. she gave us a treat (: heheh thanks.... although she wont see this.

tomorrow is thurs, and its going to be a busy and hectic thurs.
i will have to bring back some work to do over the weekend cuz i simply dont have enough time at work to compile the deck for my client.
so many things, so many changes at work.
big or small, i have to embrace them.
oh well. cant wait for renick to be back so that i can return him his stuff hehe.
also hope that they will carry out my confirmation review soon, i want my leave!!

going out with csbs for movie tomorrow.
yayness.
love to meet up with them.
a bunch of crazy, fun loving friends.
(:

and thanks to everyone who has been there.

goodbye or see you,
I'll be your best kept secret or your biggest mistake.

Labels: growing up, i have atrocious friends

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Sunday, May 23, 2010 3:17 PM

learnt a new term

i was web-surfing...
and then i was thinking of searching for bareback dresses.
typed 'bareback' into the google bar cause i was half lazy,
and this came up....
(click to enlarge)

i was horrified!
i have no desire at all, to watch "Amateur guys having bareback sex, eating cum, giving and receiving facials and more."

eeks. in fact, i had no idea bareback was a slang (quoting Wikipedia)
Bareback is a slang term to describe acts of unprotected sex (i.e. sex without the use of a condom).The origin of the term is by an analogy to riding a horse without a saddle. Bareback (sex) has recently come to describe all forms of unprotected penetration.

Hmm, so does that mean, shu jing, we cannot anyhow ride you.
哈哈哈哈
and i shall never anyhow use the word bareback in public anymore.
i think i used to say (that) "bareback (dress) very nice!!"

goodbye or see you,
I'll be your best kept secret or your biggest mistake.

Labels: why must we label everything?

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12:35 PM

not the usual sunday

its not a typical sunday for me,
in fact, my mon, tues, wed, thurs, fri, sat, have not been usual as well.
but i guess i am trying to cope.
we all have to learn, sometimes the hard way,
and along the way we pray for some help to keep us sane.
cause being alone sometimes is not that easy.

it doesnt even feel like sunday to me. when i woke up this morning, i felt as if, i was transported back to last year during October-December when i was looking for a better job and slacking at home.
so, on my not so typical sunday, i went to have breakfast with my parents at bedok hawker center, and witnessed for myself a dispute between this young lady who was probably helping out at her family's kopi/kaya bread store and this middle-aged seemingly slightly lunatic auntie customer. (note that i am a little biased against the customer here as i can totally understand the situation from the seller's point of view)
i didnt catch the entire argument but bits and pieces:
Young lady making kaya toast: auntie, the uncle queued up first but you jump queue to order....
Lunatic looking auntie (buey song tone): then you give him first lor.. you are the one making (toast) what, i cannot say anything
the uncle who supposedly came first: err.. nevermind you can give her first la... (trying to make peace)
Lunatic auntie: no no... she say you first then ok lor... i cannot do anything what...
Young lady making kaya toast (getting visibly agitated now): auntie everytime you come you must pick on something... teh si not hot la, teh si not sweet la, teh si too sweet, bread soggy la, etc why must you be so difficult?
Lunatic auntie: where got everytime... (is she admitting sometimes she's picking fault then?) you dont like my face you tell me la.... you dont want to do my business is it....
Young lady: ya i dont want to do your business (takes up the buns she's been toasting and literally threw them into the black plastic sheet - one of the bun even dropped on the floor)
meanwhile, i was thinking so this is how it looks like from the customer-behind-crazy-customer's point of view (refering to me)....
hahaha.... gungho leh the young lady....
as fierce and quick tempered i am with my parents' stall's customers,
i dont remember that i ever dumped their orders into the bin ahhaha!
i only shouted '你不要排队(queue), 就不要买lah' or '你自己叫(order)错，还要这样unreasonable'... etc.... honestly though people always say 'Customer is always right'..
i hell dont believe in that.... although i do believe that even though customer is not always right,
the seller should always give as much (patient) service as possible.
but the quick tempered and very very explosive angry me on sundays usually cannot remember that... 谁要是惹我，我就惹谁。。。 although recently my customers have all been very 乖。
哈哈。。
well it was interesting to witness the seller-customer dispute from an external point of view.
and although the young lady was very angry with lunatic customer, she was extremely nice & polite to me... this, i think i ought to learn from her. 不能一竹篙打翻整船人，对吧？

after breakfast, i went to dump parcels into the mailbox,
and went for a leisure walk around bedok interchange while waiting for the nails bar to open
had a very much-needed pedicure, and i was pleasantly surprised with the scrub and toe-snubbing/massage exercises thrown into that 30 bucks.
the scrub felt, super good.
and now looking at my freshly painted dark (purple? blue? its so dark i cant really tell the color) toes, i am a happy girl <3

recently i have been quite conflicted
as a result i am sorry to my friends especially wenxin,
cause one minute i might say this, the next minute i will tell her that i dont feel like going.
its all temporary i hope, so please bear with me.
wx and wensheng sneaked up to my place last night, it was quite funny.
i heard noises outside my room (just beside the corridor) and i thought was my neighbours
then suddenly the window was pulled open and they say hey!
my mum who was watching tv in my room was surprised too
and after that i changed to go downstairs makan with them... then my mum also went to shock them by pulling the window open and boo them while they were unsuspectingly waiting outside.
(cuz they actually didnt see my mum in my room at first so it was quite funny!)
in the end we played with the cute ginger cat downstairs after i makan-ed the pasta mania they lovingly da-pao for me...
and we came back up to watch 就想赖着你
after eating supper at McDonalds, i borrowed my sister's car to send them back (:
it was my first time driving my sis's new car alone and i parked successfully when i came back.
one-time attempt! (:
hopefully i will be able to drive ok when my sister and parents head off to china next, next week.
planning for 85 market ba chor mee, and maybe a trip to sentosa!

i have also been rather sensitive totv shows and movies recently.
every other show that is on love, loss, ex-convicts and family,
seems to be able to activate my tear ducts. -_-
maybe it is because work has been so crazy and stressed this week
cause my colleague is on reservist for 3 weeks...
sigh, 2 more (short) weeks to come.
although short weeks mean packing more things to be done into 4 days ):
hope i wont curse or cry over his stupid mailers again haha...

and, chardium on iphone is so addictive.
maybe i will be fighting with isaac over my sis's iphone tonight. haha!

p.s - is it the lunar 7th month in hotel city? there are so many ghosts in my hotel! haha.. although it beats having cockroaches... i guess these are little new tricks to keep the game fun.. the ghosts even produced 'whoo whoo whoo' sounds..

goodbye or see you,
I'll be your best kept secret or your biggest mistake.

Labels: growing up, i have atrocious friends, if love wasnt so atrocious I would have stayed blind

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Friday, May 21, 2010 2:23 PM

in a dark tunnel

i can't deny,
there are little pangs of emotions.

i must say,
i am feeling torn between my two selfs.

the emotion self
and the practical, logical self.

but i believe, somewhere, someday down the road,
i will be one self again.

goodbye or see you,
I'll be your best kept secret or your biggest mistake.

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Thursday, May 20, 2010 12:33 AM

seeing the greener part of the present

i promise to blog about the fabulous, wickedly memorable Bintan 'tuang' cum 1-yr-late graduation trip with my dearest csbs.

but right now, just some random scribblings to keep myself from overflowing,
and from flooding my friends' news feed on facebook with my incessant thoughts.
i seem to have something new on my mind every 3 seconds or so,
and its not practical to put all of them up.

right now, right now...
my thought is to try to see things in the best light
there are many angles we can look at,
and there are many we can choose to focus on
if we should choose to think and focus on the negative,
then that is what we get.
as roland always say, smile and the world smiles with you..
if i choose to think on the brighter side of things,
perhaps it might all be for the best.
i might as well enjoy the present rather than worry about the future, or cry over split milk.

i dont know when is the best time to say it,
but somewhere somehow i stumbled and it all happened.
this time round it feels so private
i have to say, i cant seem to find words to describe everything, publicly.
all i know, and all i can say right now, right now,
it is all still so surreal.
i am like floating in and out of a dream.
but i know, this is no dream.
and im staying put this time.
staying put to a decision made, best for us.

ill cherish those moments
that seemed not too long ago,
short-lived yet so battered.
daunting, yet so promising.

a best kept secret,
friends forever.

Labels: growing up, if love wasnt so atrocious I would have stayed blind

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Thursday, May 06, 2010 10:46 PM

就让它过去

我觉得好累了。。。
好像撑不下去了。。。

美丽的时光，总是短暂。
也许，放手，才是让彼此得到幸福的办法。
坚持，不一定是对的决定。
但，谁不知，要放手，说的比做的容易。。。
放手，是真正的解脱。。。
放手，是一种保留爱的美好回忆。。。

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Sunday, May 02, 2010 10:08 PM

hello, kitty

Check out the girl's 招财猫的刺青。。。
on her left arm! cool....

Damn the internet is so slow today.
And hotel city isnt loading either ):

Baby & i went to Yio chu kang road to have crab yesterday.
bill came up to about $70
though it was a long wait for the crabs, and the vege + fried rice were below par,
it was overall an awesome yummy meal.
want to go back to try butter & peppered crabs!!
Thanks dear for accommodating my swinging moods brought on by PMS, and my fatigue.
i know i am really quick tempered & short fused at times.

Am going Bintan in 6 days time!!
yeepee~
the sun + sea~ with great company....
can't wait.

goodbye or see you,
I'll be your best kept secret or your biggest mistake.

Labels: i have atrocious friends, if love wasnt so atrocious I would have stayed blind, why must we label everything?

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Saturday, May 01, 2010 6:04 PM

PMS...........

i miss watching gossip girl.
so bitchy, and filled with bits & chunks of sex, fashion and the lives of the ultra-rich.
still cant find a decent website to watch season 3 from,
so till then..... i've to make do with memories of the gorgeous chicks in the show.