a moment to remember

~songs in my head~

没有地球太阳还是会绕.

But I don’t care what they say. I’m in love with you.

I just wanna fall and lose myself Laughing so hard it hurts like hell Forget about everything and run away, yeah

~ MOTTO ~
:: if you have tried your best, there's no need for regrets. ::

~ THOUGHTS ~
By ourselves we are too weak to hold our own even for a moment.

"And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God" (Romans 8:28)

For what it's worth, it was worth all the while.

"God has given, God has taken, blessed be the name of God" (Job 1:21)

"I know what I’m doing. I have it all planned out – plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for.” (Jeremiah 29:11)

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:: juz taking a moment to remember ::

Thursday, September 25, 2008 8:16 PM

de-press-ing & ex-haus-tive

sorry for the lack of updates. dont feel like blogging recently. so much to think about and handle for fyp and my future. i really have no more motivation to study le, its just those same old modules teaching you things that one can easily find on google, and its like all i can think about is graduating, finding a good job.. earning big bucks solves alot of problems.

its sometimes so de-presss-ing to be stressed over fyp. and weekends are ex-haus-tive even though i already quit my part time job. so shdnt i have more time and be less tired, but how come i still feel very tired on sunday?

i know though i am saying i cant wait for graduation, before i know it, i will be saying wow time flies.. cant believe i have spent 4 yrs in ntu... its already october, and then come april, its byebye to CS and hall 12. still rmb the times i stepped into those places respectively, one with apprehension (cuz i was gg for interview and test), the other with curiosity.

anyway, last wednesday was our 6 mths tog. time really flies, sometimes it still seems so surreal that so much has happened before that. and i think back to the times we spent, from talking everyday on MSN while i was interning, to silent awkward talks at Canteen A & NIE, to eating ice cream at serangoon garden, talking outside mac till 3 am... darling said he nv knew beforehand i wld be so ________ and so ________ and so ________. ahaha alot of things u din expect huh! we had a yummy dinner at chomp chomp last friday to sorta celebrate and the food was sooooo nice. so hungry now. but still bedok nrth 85 sting ray and ba chor mee are still calling out to me, must visit one of these days.

some pictures now. i like the guy's hair... so toussled..

and i love her shoes.. contemplating if i shd get it.. m very sad cuz my booties that i ordered long ago are OOS.. why!!

the white/grey one is what i want... tho the brown and blue one on the model also looks very nice but i dont quite like the blue laces.. why cant they be white or sth!! dilemmmassss..

and i was pretty hooked on ebay last few days but due to the bidding nature of ebay and theres so many richer bidders than me i cldnt possibly join in... plus its all USD (wic is now rising) and still have to pay for shipping here, wic is damn ex.

seeing her booties makes me sad abt my oos ones:(

leather jacket where art thou?

super cute dog right.. its stuffed toy. haha i want a real one. mambo.

i din think those ankle boots cld look so decently nice when worn. now too late for regrets cuz f21 has no more of those.

wooo leather skirt i bidded it to 15.50 leh but haiz some1 else overbid me le.. sian, i think it will go up to 120 la.. no way i am gettin that.. tho i love leather skirts

very special monochrome jacket

looking at this sashimi salad makes me drool again!!!

celebrating wx's bday at sushi tei

this is my $12 scarlet red dress that i wanted to blog abt last week but toooo lazy. its $12!! freaking fell in love with the cutting and color the moment i saw it hanging on the mannequin at eunos's This Fashion. super nice, got the salesgirl to remove it off the mannequin for it cuz last piece. i went home immed tried it and fell in love with how it looks one me... really didnt expect red to look okay on me.. maybe cuz i m fair. but its definitely a keeper in my wardrobe for now! i am fascinated with red color. somemore i can wear during CNY if i cant find anything else to wear. lol.

cant stop camwhoring with the very red and very pretty dress la. satin somemore.

they say i look like a bride here. but i think a red gown would be overkill man!! i still very traditional, wanna wear white on my wedding (and now i want a pool-side or outdoor garden-style wedding dinner. no freezing aircon and boring hotel ballrooms for me) i want grecian style wedding dresses leh. and then usually brides will change outfit ma, i probably change into erm, royal purple or teal/dark turquoise.. shd be very lovely. (okay, i m dreaming away)

anyway so excited abt my 'prada' bag. its lovely right. slightly melancholy. suits my moody days.

cute jumpsuit!! but the last time i had the black one from topshop, there was very negative response from zhiwei... what will noel say haha... i think it will be a yes, cuz jumpsuits are short.
can see legs.

cute anchor bikini!!

like this skater dress.

kate moss new collection. the 3rd dress looks fab on her.

i wan polo dress.

nice shoes! i want the road sign too!

the white/black booties acty look quite okay ah.

this ombre dress is veryyyy nice!!

anyway, today the 7th of october, marks the first year after the break up with zhiwei. i feel very ambivalent towards him nowadays, though i wld still like to be gd friends but somehw i dont quite believe that we are up to it. time really passes so fast and exactly one year ago on this date i got my heart very very broken for a few horrid and unforgettable (in a bad way) months. i rmb the tears i shed (or shd i use the word sobs) and the pleas and the talks we had, i still sometimes think the times we went out aft breakup seemed so hypocritical and fake, on hindsight. and i still hate to think that i might have been fooled and led on.. but i guess i was the one who let myself be led on bcuz i loved him that much back then.

its very sad when girls no longer value themselves as individuals but deem their worth dependent on how their bf treats them. i wish all girls including myself will always remember that we shd not put ourselves down becuz of love. true love is something that will help you become a better person and be more confident. but to think that we are unloved/ugly/unworthy of love just cuz someone rejects us is wrong. anyway in any case, i am glad that everything is over for 1 yr already. time moves on, people move on, and may both of us be happy apart.

goodbye or see you,
I'll be your best kept secret or your biggest mistake.

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Wednesday, September 24, 2008 2:55 PM

wheee! i love citibank

lucky i told my sister abt the late fee that citibank imposed cuz last mth i forgot to pay the stupid $8 that was brought forward from July.. plus all the shuttling to and fro hall and home means i easily missed the statement.. anyway she told me can call them up to get them to waive the fee one.. bt can only waive once every year..

so today i was debating whether to call not cuz i dont know if i wld be successful without sounding like i am some desperado on the phone. but heck i tot it was worth a try since i was really not pleased that i have to pay $40 late fee for an unpaid $8!! plus i was thinking citibank so big and rich, if i faithfully just pay $40 without trying to get it waived, i am damn stupid right. and they dont def dn need my $40 to keep them in biz.

so i called n tried to act kelian and said that i forgot to pay it blahhh etc and whether they can waive off. i didnt have to really persuade cuz the nx thing she said is pls hold.. and then wait & wait.. then she came back and said she will help me waive it (yeay!) but its only once every 12 mths.. so happpyyy i dont have to pay the late fee. at first i tot maybe late fee is $20 at most, but wah $40... is too much for a punishment! haha.

Note to self: pay bills on time.
2nd note to self: damn dont use the card la then no bill to pay then no chance to be late then no late fee imposed.

and i got my AA multi versatile sac dress le!! its just like a gunny sac like that with two long strings but still its pretty cool and i lent how to wear it 4-5 ways le!but it was a tad too long for my liking so off it went to the tailor for a snip. siting was saying we shd just buy satin cloth to ask the auntie to make it.. the more i think abt it the more it sounds like a brilliant idea. since its probably not difficult to make. it wld be cool if we can make for OGD! but the problem i forsee is that with satin cloth, the straps might slide off so cant tie it in that many ways.

whatever. i am awaiting my AA bandage skirt! and my gladiators and my booties! and the govt to give me my gst credits nx week!

goodbye or see you,
I'll be your best kept secret or your biggest mistake.

Labels: whoever invented fashion committed an atrocious crime

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12:58 AM

on fast dale (dial)

yes i actually said fast dale. like chip & dale. and darling laughed like mad. think my mouth recently got loopholes or what. haha. he is not any better. said ong-kong for hongkong, ate the letter 'h'..

anyway the entry today is abt 2 events. interesting ones.

first! i was browsing at FANCL store at taka and after asking the sales lady some questions.. then she suddenly blurted this 'are you pregnant?'

........... zzzzzz right

read on.. its damn funny and weird

sales lady: are you pregnant?
me: err no, (rubs tummy), but i just had dinner, so...
sales lady: oh okay ...
me: (silence.. still abit stunned by her random qns) do i look pregnant?
her: oh no la just that i tot u were pregnant cuz the way you carry yourself n you fold your arms (demonstrates..) is very similar to pregnant women
me: err.. haha.. (folding arms = pregnant?) no la i m nt pregnant.. not anytime soon ahha, i m nt married.
her: oh okay (laughs)
me: laughs (walks out shortly after)

this is what i wear today. very preggy meh? i think its the long cardigan + the blue agnes b bag la that gave the preggy mama effect. dont knw if i m hallucinating but the more i stare at the pic i can imagine a bulge there and how i will look like. speaking of agnes b, i dn wanna carry the bag liao la, just today i saw 3-4 ppl carrying it can! at town, at queenstown blah.. 2 white and 1 pink.. but still its so sian to see others having the bag..

**pics removed upon request! haha

moving on, the 2nd event. wx and i were at mos burger when she suddenly said 'eh Andy!' then i turned ard (haven really process the info but subconsciously thinking she's bluffing or just pointing out a lookalike) and there he was with a girl, really. and he also saw me instantly so he walked over to say hi.. and asked him what he was doing here, and blah... he said long time no see.. really true man.. tho it cld possibly be even longer if i hadnt had the breakup w zhiwei, didnt hang out w david + jason, and thus didnt visit him when he had his operation.. (see, in life, one thing leads to another). its been maybe 8 mths?

thinking back, years ago, i was always at the east side, at tampines and wondering when or if i were to bump into him how wld we react? but that nv ever happened. it is so... i dont knw whats the word, incredulous? that i bumped into him at taka after 6 years of nv bumping into him on the streets. and its really nice that we are back to friends now. though we are no longer close friends like before, but he will remain a special friend to me. thinking back i have known him for almost 10 years! since the days we talked cock on phone, used his 3 way calling to call laichun and ronnie, and left numerous msgs on IRC for each other, made each other sad and furious, sat behind the bookshop with the others during recess, studied at the library for O levels, etc.. time flies man.. so much has changed but the memories seemed like yesterday. if we had met now, or maybe a few years after secondary, maybe things will work out differently (we were so immature back then gosh.. haha) but anyway its nice to see him and hopefully that girl will become his gf soon LOL...

after dinner, we headed for cotton on again. gosh its so addictive. their $5 sales must be super successful. this is the 2nd time i am there in 2 days. bet if i go back tml there wil stil be something to buy. everytime i turn back they seem to have replenish the sales rack with new items. i tried 4 items, all looked good, cut my options to 3. then finally down to 2. and it was between a $5 dress and a $5 top. in the end i managed to convince myself to part with $5 for the top, and not get both. i have this sense of achievement. but at the same time wondering if i cld have bought the $5 dress, wear it twice den sell it at like $5 still. lol. yesterday i bought a mini skirt (not sale item but the faded color and cut was what i wanted for darn long!) and a $7.50 ash tee for darling. $7.50 leh! i wished i can buy in yellow, white and even blue for him.. all so nice and comfy!! haha n i saw the tee i bought for him today left one pc and it was size xs.. i tot of getting it to wear with him like couple tee.. wont it be super cute to wear to sleep tog! hahaha.. on second tots, argghh why didnt i get it?

note to self: do not step into Cotton On for the rest of the recess week. but do step back when they have dirt cheap sales again. :D

alright time for bed. tml start my engine le...

goodbye or see you,
I'll be your best kept secret or your biggest mistake.

Labels: if love wasnt so atrocious I would have stayed blind, whoever invented fashion committed an atrocious crime

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Friday, September 19, 2008 11:19 PM

the world in black and white

somewhat like my C&K maryjanes but this is in Black n white. F21 is producing too many tempting shoes.

very matching. i would love to wear it together! haha.

note: to insert my head here to see how i wld possibly look like with that gladiators sandals. but her legs look so much longer than mine! lucky i have many black dresses! ah! maybe it would be nice to pair it with my claire taffeta dress!

here at http://community.livejournal.com/ourgorgeousdays/6278.html

yay to recess. but i still hate fuc*ing yucky project.
probably flunk my mid term too.

goodbye or see you,
I'll be your best kept secret or your biggest mistake.

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Thursday, September 18, 2008 5:15 PM

image-heavy, once again

just had my presentation! it was alright la but may be cuz i wasnt very prepared so most of the times i forgot i had notes to refer to so i just kind of read from slides or attempted to do my own explanation which didnt turn out very smooth. but then last year le so i dont feel that bothered anymore haha. super sleepy now. tml got mid term for media law, and i just knew abt it on tuesday, its 40% of my total grade, God save us all!

cant wait for saturday, the official start of recess. though i knw it will wheeze past like super duper fast, plus i have so much to do n catchup on.. big sigh. the more i study, the more i want to get out of school. somehow earning money feels like such a big draw.

once again the knee high gladiators that i lusted so much for just after one look at a model wearing it in SMITTEN magz.

but this is no normal gladiators. this is from chanel!! omg, that makes me love chanel even more cuz we agree that this is hot. haha :x but anyway this costs $1250 (USD probably).. i rather get christian louboutins with that money.

but when i chanced upon urban org again... and saw these.. i was kind of hyperventilating and couldnt believe its here all along.. without wasting more time or further ado, i joined the spree. deliberated about whether to get it in patent or just those PU matt material for v long. well my concern was the patent kind might turn out cheapo looking and too glossy. but at the same time the matt kind looks like the one i cld have got at taiwan if they were higher and looks even more cheapo looking.

till wx came back and answered my dilemma. and she also said the patent ones would probably match my wardrobe more so, so well her answer sealed my dilemma: patent it is. lucky this one has a back zip for easy wearing, if not i cant imagine trying to buckle the 12 (yeah i acty counted) buckles. certainty not for chinese new year visiting huh haha. i cant wait!! maybe it will look stumpy on me or damn weird but sometimes you just need to know how it would be like. like in love, 'cheng jing yong you' is gd enough sometimes.

and then there was this AA dress. yes it is ONE dress. these are just a few of the ways to wear this super versatile sac dress. siting says its v good for people like me who gets bored of wardrobe easily. (suggests that i m fickle-minded)

i have no idea how i would actually figure out how to tie the strings but i guess i wld manage with the 'manual' below.

American Apparel is getting more n more attention and love from me. i love that they have customer reviews for their items! and their multitude of colors.

really want to get this bandage like skirt. its a skort. a skirt with shorts inside. damn hot right. so no zao geng with this. i love AA even more now.

Also from AA, a zip swimsuit, how cool is that. of cuz u pray that when u go to the pool people dont come up to you and unzip you. and glossy leather leggins. quite cool. wearing the swimsuit with a top, ingenious. but of cuz in real life people prob can tell its a swimsuit from the material. so only works to persuade people to buy it in glossy pics like this - advertising, in other words. (ethical anot? hahaha)

kind of like this at first but somehow its wearing off.. (again, fickled mindedness?)

and i was trying v v hard to imagine myself wearing this red dress. guess the kinda red i m thinking to try is the blood red (blood is acty darker red), nt bright red like CNY. hmm nt very convinced i can carry it off without looking like tacky. i want to be sensual with red. haha, i thk very hard la, with my bangs.

and i got to mention, i got a zebra halter maxi for $19! whee so happy.. like finally. though darling says 'isnt this same as ur the other one' - refering to the bonitochico one, but really its diff prints. just that both are monochrome. hahaha. but hey at least ones a halter the other is not. but i guess what makes me secretly very happy is that he doesnt object to zebra prints or anything 'weird' like that unlike zhiwei. out of all the probably 'objectionable' things i have, the only thing darling dont like was the purple top with a tie back and ermm 'netting' over the shoulder. which is sold anyway!
:)) so yeah i m a happy girl with a happy wardrobe.

this dress frm wetseal looks v hazardous right. with that metal fork thingy. its on sale. no wonder.

oh and i love the back of this tee!

the front so-so la but together the tee feels very like erm.. investigative.

and look, our to-be customer blogged abt OGD :) was saying she wanted a leather jacket from f21 and then she saw ours!! haha hope more ppl wld blog abt OGD for more publicity man!

and have also decided the camera to get, more or less.. casio exlim z77 which is $309. (black one).. the red one is z80, slightly higher mega pixel, but $356 i think. i prefer z77 buttons anwy. but think red color is nicer plus everyone's camera seem to be black.

plus i have decided... my most desired holiday destination is..... drum roll... MALDIVES. perfect resort stay with the so-blue and clear sea.

i feel bad abt using her photo so i blanked her face. but look at the view behind her.

for those who dont know abt MALDIVES, heres some info and more photos (more breathtaking ones):

The country is located in the Indian ocean southwest of India and Sri Lanka.
can blue ever be more blue?
anyway the girl looks like shes wading through water that will drop off sharply at the end, kinda like how waterfall works. hahaa. but i guess this is as close as i can get to nature.