~songs in my head~
没有地球太阳还是会绕.But I don’t care what they say. I’m in love with you. I just wanna fall and lose myself Laughing so hard it hurts like hell Forget about everything and run away, yeah ~ MOTTO ~ :: if you have tried your best, there's no need for regrets. :: ~ THOUGHTS ~ By ourselves we are too weak to hold our own even for a moment. "And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God" (Romans 8:28) For what it's worth, it was worth all the while. "God has given, God has taken, blessed be the name of God" (Job 1:21) "I know what I’m doing. I have it all planned out – plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for.” (Jeremiah 29:11) Hit Counters |
:: juz taking a moment to remember ::
Thursday, August 30, 2007 9:33 PM
PICTORIAL UPDATE + some words because a picture may be worth a thousand words, but you cant read my mind  i love her tee and whats more, i love love her hair.. will i ever have the courage to dye this color? hahaha  this is cute right? the chicken and moo looking so puzzled over a moo egg.. haha.. damn cute!  this is funny! abit sexual innuendo huh  the perfect to die for heels... okay la, just kidding.. cuz the to die for pair is Christian Louboutins heels with red soles.. (see below) or the never-bought-in-HK nine west pointed patent black heels. i was dumb!   and i just bought this from .......... F21........ i cant wait for claire taffeta dress to come! freaking gorgeous. and i realise i haven posted anything about foc and my bday... i will probably write about foc after tues's main comm treat time flies and dnd will be this sat.. but i am still sick, sigh... feel awful! Signing off, no more ink. Labels: whoever invented fashion committed an atrocious crime 0 wore their hearts on their sleeves Tuesday, August 28, 2007 4:51 PM
all so jaded sometimes i am happy, sometimes i wonder if the happiness is all made-up sometimes i think if there's anything to be unhappy about, really or if i am just making things up just like advertising and pr have grey areas, and can overlap, my state of mind and emotions are grey too sometimes i think its all too tiring, and there are too many things in the past dragging it down but yet i cannot bear to let it go every little memory comes to me when i try to recall life being single and then i realise i really havent been single for a long long time, or almost none at all, if we start counting from after i was more mature (16?) so i wonder how is it like to be single, not even liking anyone at all, no crushes, no feelings for the opposite sex, nothing.. and i realise and remember that when i was single, i always dreamt of having somebody for support, somebody to be there for me at all times and sometimes its a dreadful feeling love is sometimes like a habit, and its also a collection of items things that you wont particularly notice everyday will become obvious to you after breakups it could be a cup only, but you would recall that you bought this when shopping with that special person it could be just envelopes, but you would remember how there used to be letters and then you realise, everywhere you turn, in some corner of your room/house/environment, there's something that will remind you of the memories, a painful process while trying to forget and then you consider throwing away things but yet, you dont want them to be gone permanently love is like a habit too every saturday, you may be used to spending it with that person after breakup, you realise you have nowhere to go or you feel weird staying at home i also wonder if love is like a flight at first, when taking off, it will be slow and stable.. and you can see the different stages, the plane moving along the runway, the plane travelling faster and faster till it lifts from the ground, and then finally it is ascending to great heights, and then at some point it will travel at a constant speed, stable and calm, but eventually it has to descend and stop. if its really like a flight, does it mean that all relationships will come to an end eventually? i suppose so, because even if it survives through marriage, death will occur to one person first then the other... slowly i think i am learning to see things in a different light maybe understand things and situations better or maybe its just acceptance that things have changed, will change, and maybe sometimes its just a matter of working out the differences Signing off, no more ink. Labels: growing up, if love wasnt so atrocious I would have stayed blind 0 wore their hearts on their sleeves Sunday, August 26, 2007 5:18 PM
things have been happening so fast that i have no time to breath There's like a million things for me to do.. esp in terms of studies.. all the campaigns and projects confuse me because i forget what module deals with what. and i haven touch my textbooks. but how come there's like not enough time for me to deal with all these things? maybe cuz emotions always drain me.. yesterday at the DND bash (the 1st one i attended in hall 12) it was really fun. dont know why but maybe when one has problems, one will think clubbing/drinking is like one solution. or a short escape. after sally treated me to some tequila thingy that i had to gulp down (and i never gulp anything down), and they sabo me consecutively at cai quan, i felt stoned and sleepy lor. and sally was vv high cuz clemence treated her to some super lethal drink, den she started saying 'mybday just over so she wants to treat me -_-'... then when everyone finally began to dance, i was swaying lah... i just shouted at everyone, partly i was high, partly the music was damn loud, and when they shouted back into my ears, my ears were very painful lah! oh and i also v high and shouted to two freshies weixiang and dehong.. cuz i was wondering where all the hall 12 ppl go to!??! and i saw a pretty girl too.. haha sorry no shuai ge.. hmm and i always wonder the club is so dark, how guys bio girls? i cant even see clearly. but i must really thank siting, roland wong, hongda, alvin leow, ruifang, shujing, caddie, ben, christine and my SP victor ma! for taking care of me and surrounding me in that tiny circle so i wont sway my way out somewhere. oh and of cuz jarren too, for sending me up to my hse.. but seriously i can rmb everything that happened last night.. and the things i said.. when i got home, i bath and fell aslp but i was like awake and floating that kind of sensation. and den my limbs all feel heavy and numb. and i woke up still foggy.. i think nx time if we ever club again, we shd go on weekday.. cuz sunday i need to work la.. so cannot make it.. hmm, we also went to masquerade the costume shop b4 the bash, but then my dreams of being a ballerina were dashed cuz strangely they dont have the kind of sweet, pink/cream ballerina top, only got the tutu, which is very easily detached one.. so i tried on this skimpy looking black vest/top paired with a black tutu, and they say i look like corpse bride/gothic ballerina.. haha i really like the tutu leh, but in the end i found another costume.... shall not reveal it.. wait for pics or something.. but i need to exercise or not eat to wear it. hahaha..... wenxin's one is even more powerful, cannot wear bra.... whee what she wearing? wanna find out? hahaha..... but its kinda big and has the 'can can' one.. COOL rite got some uncertainties ongoing in my life now, but maybe i should channel my energy into other matters instead.. i dont know if i am right to hold on, sometimes i dont know what i am holding onto, i think its a habit, i also think its too hard for me to give up a perfect dream, i dont know.. i feel like going GSS too, and now i m considering to join Welfare Service Club's Overseas Volunteer Expedition.. cuz its like OCIP tt i went during JC.. firstly its meaningful, and secondly, i m gg to grad soon, next time i wont such chances, and thirdly, it will be nice to get out of singapore to view this world more... so mk, u are v fortunate. haha... but then if i join that, then i dont know if i can join foc...sigh..... but i also dont know if foc wants me.... haha.. right now, at least i know that choosing this major over journalism was nt a bad idea. and i at least have some idea what i want to do next time.. hopefully i can work towards the goal. and i want to go running leh.. that day play vball with the guys made me realise how bloody long i haven exercise.............. and i bought damn alot of stuff recently..... shit.. Signing off, no more ink. Labels: dreams, growing up, if love wasnt so atrocious I would have stayed blind, The more we study the more we discover our ignorance. but ignorance is bliss so we should study more. 0 wore their hearts on their sleeves Wednesday, August 22, 2007 2:44 AM
0 wore their hearts on their sleeves 2:41 AM
sad song hmm i never tried uploading from youtube b4. its actually super fuss-free. dunno why but i keep playing this song. 自欺欺人. the guy looks like kyon hor. i used to watch one of his shoes with chen xiao dong one.. he's v cute. and although i dont understand totally what they are singing, it just makes me feel very sad. and the mtv too. it causes more uncertainty, raises more questions about the whole idea of love. maybe love exists, but does love last? probably not... or maybe 1 in a million i just want to escape to somewhere... excerpts from the song: 别懒惰 要说清楚 看 我们正对峙 懦弱地逃避了事 事实说 我爱你不够 想退后 爱到这刻只得责任 不想占有 我曾发誓对你好 愿做你好友 减低一点内疚 真心话 我跟你无谓再逗留 Signing off, no more ink. Labels: why must we label everything? 0 wore their hearts on their sleeves Thursday, August 09, 2007 10:58 PM
not much time left this year i kinda forgot, or didnt have the time to countdown to my birthday finally get the chance to come online. so with 59 minutes to go, i shall go to bed cuz i have a headache!! i also got my first present. not what i expected in the sense that i actually saw that present and went with him to buy it, just that i didnt know it is going to be my present. i hope i dont kill the plant the letter with goblin poem (totally reminded me of literature! christina rossetti and her goblin poem) and 21 pieces of memories from 3 bags that the goblin left behind, were however priceless and the fact that i still have this relationship means more to me than any other present also the fact that someone is going to attend my birthday this sunday really makes me :) happy 16th birthday to self... (yeah right...) EDIT: HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY to self!! time to grow up, but still remain pretty, smart, cute, lovable, sweet, blah blah blah, (and thickskinned)... i will post again after my birthday. Do remember to come this sunday!! Signing off, no more ink. 0 wore their hearts on their sleeves |
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