~songs in my head~
没有地球太阳还是会绕.But I don’t care what they say. I’m in love with you. I just wanna fall and lose myself Laughing so hard it hurts like hell Forget about everything and run away, yeah ~ MOTTO ~ :: if you have tried your best, there's no need for regrets. :: ~ THOUGHTS ~ By ourselves we are too weak to hold our own even for a moment. "And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God" (Romans 8:28) For what it's worth, it was worth all the while. "God has given, God has taken, blessed be the name of God" (Job 1:21) "I know what I’m doing. I have it all planned out – plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for.” (Jeremiah 29:11) Hit Counters |
:: juz taking a moment to remember ::
Thursday, July 29, 2004 6:10 PM
i'm starved! if i can feel starved, den i guess i m completely well. aft 2 days of stomachache (or iszit diarrhoea?) n no appetite, i guess feeling ultimately hungry means tt i haf recovered.. so for the past few days i have gone to toilet 7 times... cool.. little input but 7 times of output muahah... also dunno y, maybe i eaten sth wrong on mon?? but now, i haf to make do with tis utterly horrible, tasteless, and nutritionless mee goreng, whers my dinner, i dunno leh.. but i m really hungry so a few mouthful of horrible food is betta den those poor starved children of Africa rite, see what food i can haf ltr lor... hmm, today was rather long day, but lessons pretty interesting, in fact i was amazed tt i dint fell aslp dring GP lect on cloning, stem cells blah blah.. infact, i copied almost everythg, and paid amazing attention.. dint even feel sian despite knowing i haf to go hm myself today.. cuz he got tuition.. its rare, or issit my diligence is coming out. haha doubt so... anw, these few days, sth happened in skol. theres tis guy called xian liang who passed away, due to brain tumour or sth, tho i dunoo him at all, but it turned out he was kenneth's first 3 mth fren, hmm so i been in contact with him b4, but dint noe.. haiz but i acty cried when i tot of the matter at home on tues.. was pretty shocked when Mrs Goh announced, aft all he is the same age as me, and same sch.. just a few classes away.. yet i dun even noe.. does it goes to show tt we lead such busy n self-centered lives tt we fail to notice/care for ppl in our surroundings, or even oblivious to who/what is ard us? perhaps so, isnt it? the sad n cruel truth.. haiz, and i heard tt his mum had succumbed to the same disease 5 yrs ago, imagine he had to deal with that loss, and then since last dec, battle w his own illness.. i really hope tt i will nv eva haf to deal w such a terribe situation personally or come across it as a friend/loved one's case.. i cant imagine how i will feel if i noe him personally, since i m alr burdened with such emotions when i dun even noe him.. sigh! its really so sad, but i hope he'll b at peace n reunited with his mother in Heaven ba.. tts what we can all wish for only, and give thanks for our everyday taking for granted health.. i guess no1 can offer an explanation why he was 'chosen' to die, why he had to leave tis world at such a tender age, but maybe everythg tt happned has its reasons... but really, life is so fragile, vulnerable n tender, we nv noe when we r next.. life springs surprises (sometimes unwanted/cruel surprises)on us.. life may b so short... hence really adds on to my prev post abt asking everyone to treasure their loved ones... hmm, prelims is 6 weeks away, or issit 5 weeks, realise tt we wll b mizzing quite a no. of lessons, teachers gg for course la, tis n tt, damn, whos suffering, but us lor.. then prob say make up lessons and den more stress for individual motivation.. 'time flies, hope flags, life plies a wearied wing' haha got tis quote fr Rossetti's poems, sonnet 10!! there shd b such a shop wherby i can go in and purchase the following: - motivation to study - 10,000 clocks to remind me of the urgency & thus stop idling my time away - diligence - or maybe time machine to turn back time to when i was still a carefree J1?? - more brain memory space, aft all now HPs come with what 32 MB of space for MP3, mayb nxt ting u noe, our brain space can b upgraded and increased to store more info? hmm, sth to look 4ward to.. - intelligence and higher IQs to score - winning formulas to get As - Higher EQs to establish closer n better r/s with teachers so as to b able to get them to divulge the prelims qns?? (hahaha.. then hw to get to noe the A lvl qns??) - healthy stress - determination - A'lvls cert with 'flying colours' (as we liked to say in pri sch - wish u pass ur exams w flying colours) wic up till now i dunoo what colours can fly... =p what a load of nonsense... muhaha.. but its just entertainment... self-entertainment if u guys dun enjoy wat i wrote.. gtg, tata! love ya, whoever tt was/is part of my life whenever, wherever... thanks n tk care! Signing out, pen is running out of ink. 0 wore their hearts on their sleeves Wednesday, July 21, 2004 6:16 PM
I have found the best way to love; thats to love thru my heart, and not thru my memories.
Listening to: lifehouse-hanging by the moment (chorus) I'm falling even more in love with you letting go of all I've held onto I'm standing here until you make me move I'm hanging by a moment here with you
0 wore their hearts on their sleeves Sunday, July 11, 2004 5:59 PM
school life is going to be one hell rollercoaster ride fr now on! i wanna go watch windstruck lea.. but everyones seem to haf watched le haha.. so mayb i shd do wat rachel suggested? to go watch alone; she said its a pretty fun experience but i dun lyk the lonely feeling of being alone in a big cinema w/o noeing other ppl lea haha.. but i really wanna watch it heard fr my sis it got pretty sad at the end as the guy turned into a ghost or sth lyk tt? hmm but tis wk gg to watch mean girls with corn, so i thk i may nt get the chance to watch WS, but nvm mayb can get the VCD?? (haha ppl who noe me will noe its unlikely, i always say i wanna get the vcds for eg love actually/50 first dates till now i also nv go get) i just thk $$ shd drop down fr the sky for me to buy such things mar.. these days my $$ just dun seem to increase, but at least decreasing at a slower rate.. anyway cant wait to mit up with corn again.. gotta so much wanna hear fr her.. dun haf muc to tell her acty.. just bore her with my stable life (well stable is gd tho').. hmm, past few days i been sleeping n slacking most of my time away, die le.. haven got all my results back, stil got 5 other scripts for lit yet returned, but prob get them tml ba.. and i pray i can get at least C??!! if D then no improvement fr promos.. hmm but i really thk its hard to get A for lit cuz u haf to average 30-35 for each script (8 to do in 9 hrs exams condition) according to Ms Lam hu acty gave us a dressing-down tt day. first time see her so worked up, but her scolding was right, we deserved it la.. at class tt day i caught one of my classmates stoning n staring into space i was kinda worried yet also disappointed for him (oopz i revealed its a male). at tis pt of time, he stil nv bother to pay attention n he was one of those who didnt hand in any lit assignments.. sigh.. everyone pls wake up, it ll b too late if u dun start to do the basics now.. anyway i digressed hor, yah i dunno hw on earth i m going to get that A for lit u noe.. now ms lam says we cannot expect anyting less than A!! (quite laughable considering last term she said we must not expect to get anyting less than C, what a big jump..) but i realli wanna get into NTU so i must find a way to focuz n motivate myself n nt let my belovedSSS be disappointed. how to b motivated & nt restless aft studying for every 5 mins, i stil got no idea, may God help me!! everyone jia you OK!! A lvl will b over n done with soon! less than 4 months left if we work hard n get decent grades, tis 4 months will = ensuring that we haf a gd job, happiness and not toiling for the next 40 yrs to come.. (tt is if we can live tt long la) i kinda thk life is short really.. (arh got headache.. recently always get it..) ok, once i blog i seem to rattle on non-stop.. anw, hope tml PE wont haf to run lyk mad, duno who will b our teacher lea.. but i wanna go to sch tml!! cuz i can see him (miss him like madness on fri) and also a piece of gd news; tml is the 12th AGAIN... wow.. i hope next month 12th i will b saying AGAIN, and then sept AGAIN and forever got AGAIN.. anyway its 3 months for me + him.. :))))) got a lil surpz for him.. gtg lea.. tons of tings nt done.. everyone tk care, God blesS!! Signing out, pen is running out of ink. 0 wore their hearts on their sleeves Wednesday, July 07, 2004 9:58 AM
my proudest moments in tpjc record... =p read on to find out! wondering why i m here typing at 10.58AM instead of being in skool? haha i didnt pon!! its just that i woke up with a puffy n sore right eye, wic is terribly hideous (only my family members are allowed to see me in suc state) haha.. that no amounts of concealer will make it look normal, unless i wear sunglasses to sch.. haha.. hence i nv go lor.. but den sad ting was it meant i cldnt get to c him.. :( and not able to see my results myself.. BUT then, wenxin smsed me to let me noe of my geog results.. i just cannot believe it, but i got highest score for both phy + human (but for human, kevin and GC also same mark as me)... darn.. i just cant accept that for the first time (i thk so) i got highest for any subj in tpjc, and more so for GEOG (wic is my lousiest subj).. haha.. but the funny ting is my highest score wasnt what u will consider HIGH la, human geog i only got 23/50 (so u can guess what the rest got if my barely passed mark was the highest) muahaa, and phy geog (i m so proud!!! i nv pass PG TESTS b4 except for promos - wic is considered exams) i got 33/50!!! wooo~ true la, u put in effort u will reap wat u sow. i did study for PG much more than HG.. heee... i m really happy, wanna share tis news with him asap.. :))) so i m stuck at home for the rez of the day but dunch really mind, feel lyk a holiday lea.. i acty nid to get some eyemo, but in my haven-bath-yet + tweety bird pyjamas... errr.. no one is allowed to witness tis.. so i may nt get eye mo la mayb just go slp more to ease the puffiness.. (look lyk goldfish, i hate goldfish!!!) la la la.. 4 more months to A lvl, my t'chers are JUST STARTING to stress us, and the first subj is ECONS wic is damn packed; every week we will haf a test, DRQ/CASE STUDY/MCQ or ESSAYS.. power.. guess tis yr my bdae that long weekend will prob not be all FUN/celebration! :( nevertheless, i m realli excited abt my 18th bdae... will finally b able to open d bottle of champagne and drink LEGALLY w my sis! yeaahhhhh and i promise to only open all my presents on 10th aug itself, haha its more fun, if belated prezzie, then i will open them next yr (muhaha JUST JOKKING!!!) hmm i digressed.. haha.. ok anyway everyone jiayou for A'lvl hor.. shit, i nid to get out of my hse... the renovations for my neighbour is killing my ears! Signing out, pen is running out of ink. 0 wore their hearts on their sleeves Monday, July 05, 2004 9:04 PM
things always change at one point or another.. but i wonder, is change good or bad? if things dont change, will i remain happy forever? bored!!!! i am feeling so sian and down ever since laz sat, its the girls hormones tt come out to wreck me every month.. pms lor.. its a girls thing.. haha.. but the feeling is realli awful when i just feel pissed or annoyed at lil things or worse dun wanna talk for no reason at all.. its irritating to me n d ppl ard me.. so sorry my frens if i given u all certain deg of cold shoulder this week.. so elin, u shd noe why tt day go bugis i nv talk much.. sorry hor.. haiz.. tml sch really reopen lea.. laz week stil feel lyk slack week due to the exams den can go home early.. but tml 430pm sch then end.. sigh.. i dun wanna such a life, i hardly see him in sch one, and we def will haf less time for each other.. haiz! hmm, i just hope i will quickly adjust back to sch life... thk i been too attracted to the holiday style of life haha... must be charged for A lvl lea... nth much to blog lea.. hmm so i shall go slack now. my last day of hol.. miss him.. :) Signing out, pen is running out of ink. 0 wore their hearts on their sleeves Friday, July 02, 2004 9:00 AM
my common tests over and screwed up... muhaha... i m here again.. finally 4 long days of torturous and madness (studying) is over!! yeah.. i thk i nv bia so hard for tests b4 leh.. haha esp for lit p1 i study till 12 midnite ++ and woke at 5++.. tt day so shack only slpt a few pathetic hrs.. haha but hopefully can do O.K for p1.. for gothic, i thk i wrote out of point la.. wat nonsense i m saying i also duno just cont to write, and bring in the 3 dictionary-like books also nt much use.. ok enuff abt exams.. now noe i haf to wk v hard for A lvl lea yest aft my laz paper went to enjoy myself with rach n cheryl!! den i got mit him for lunch la tho' only got to see him for 1 hr++ but alr v xin man yi zhu liao, so the 3 of us went to wild wild wet lor.. haha v fun lea.. the slides nt as scary as i thot la.. but then hor theres this v steep ride (forgot d name) that is shaped like U but imagine a wide U lah like \__/ (haha looks lik V instead).. for 2 ppl one den i haf to sit with a stranger cuz 3 of us odd no. err then kinda funie cuz the way u haf to sit in the float (shaped like a 8) is kinda obscene lah considering hes a guy n total stranger.. cuz each of us haf to open our legs like tis \/ (haha alot of illustrations hor).. and the ride was heart stopping haha.. den got many other slides and also tis cycling thru the air tingy..[stopped on 2/7/04] [cont on 3/7/04] err, so what was i saying?? hmm, to sum up the wild wild wet v fun la they haf to drag me away fr the playgrd cuz i keep begging them for a last ride but while they wer nt looking i went for a sec time haha.. but i m nt gg tsunami again rach n i nearly got drowned in it! cuz the waves were so big scary sia, we started to panic and all knowledge of swimming/threading water were useless.. my second awful experience.. damn, imagine if i died in there so wasteful, then what will happen to those who love me?? so sad aww.. dun wanna tok abt it le.. hmm den aft tt went to meet him he acc me home.. :) hmm yest also went out leh with him but nv sian lah.. cuz its some quality time. went to watch spiderman 2, quite nice despite i nv had any interest in spiderman 1.. haha he changed my perspective on lots of movies.. and thk yest was the many times i went orchard again.. but i still blur blur forgot wic way is to PS.. den kanna laughed by him.. haha.. went to the fountain place opp PS and sat to donate blood to mosquitoes (see how kind-hearted i am hor?) haha~ but i didnt mind lah.. sigh, thk tts the last time we will spend such quality time lea sch reopened, but i stil feel as if its hol due to the long weekend now.. i gonna mizz him so much these few days (alr am)... and later stil gg out, i m so beat!! haven gotten much rest/slacking time aft exams haha... today gg to celeb leemei/xiaohui belated bdae.. yeah, finally can pass them d present.. hope they ll like it.. and den at nite gg to acc mummy to a wedding dinner at (very far) harbour front center (argh!!) sigh, i dun realli lyk to attend such events unless i noe the couple or else its so boring when i m the only young person there listening to adult talk.. :( haiz but no choice everytime i m d only one free to acc her.. so unfair hor.. but at least gt my fav shark fin la.. but i feel as if i m bringing mum to sentosa sia, funny.. its damn far lor.. nt looking forward to it much... but usually i will get touched or all dreamy aft the wedding starts la... haha.. den will start to daydream abt my own.. (bleh~)its still a long time away... :)))) but luckily i alr decided on who.. muAhaaA.. hmm, thk tts abt it.. i wake up so long haven even brush teeth n wash face (eeeee) nor haf breakfast.. so yup, cya guys.. hope u all haf fun, 3 more days of hol.. Signing out, pen is running out of ink. 0 wore their hearts on their sleeves |
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