a moment to remember

~songs in my head~

没有地球太阳还是会绕.

But I don’t care what they say. I’m in love with you.

I just wanna fall and lose myself Laughing so hard it hurts like hell Forget about everything and run away, yeah

~ MOTTO ~
:: if you have tried your best, there's no need for regrets. ::

~ THOUGHTS ~
By ourselves we are too weak to hold our own even for a moment.

"And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God" (Romans 8:28)

For what it's worth, it was worth all the while.

"God has given, God has taken, blessed be the name of God" (Job 1:21)

"I know what I’m doing. I have it all planned out – plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for.” (Jeremiah 29:11)

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:: juz taking a moment to remember ::

Wednesday, January 21, 2009 10:39 PM

age catches up with us

suddenly today i am feeling old.
its like okay i turned 20, then threw a bday party at 21, then 22 came and went, and now i am 23. at first it just seemed like a number. but today, i dont know, but a combination of things made me realized that age has caught up, and i am really not a kid anymore. nor a teenager.

first was seeing my hall mates canvassing for their project by cleaning rooms. it reminded m,e of garung guni that we had to do every year for foc canvassing, this year i believe they shd have done it already since cny is nx week.. but i am so out of hall activities that i didnt even gave a thought about it until now. i think its a perception thing, like if u are in that group, you will be into the activities and stuff, but once u are out, even if they have had posters hanging ard advertising stuff you prob wont notice it.. like now i dont even know when hall has their events.. only when i chk my email.. i feel so not happening.. and i see the young ones (haha the year 1s and 2s) and they just seemed so happy, vibrant full of energy. i see them going for dinner in a large grp tog, and i saw myself in them, that was me 2-3 years ago. every dog has his day, and i guess mine is up.. being a year 4, and a soon-to-be-graduating one, i am not longer like them. my energy and focus no longer on hall activities, no more huge dinner groups with jokes laughter and lots of watermelon juice.. i look at the hall, the different crooks, stairs, areas, benches, that i have ever had a memory of, and alot of memories came from foc.. 4 years of foc.. abit sad that i wont be involved anymore this year.. the games we play, the things we do, the bonds that come and go.. i think i am gonna miss staying in hall, the freedom, the late hours, seeing my friends every day, having wx as my roomie, stuffs like that. the day when i move out of here permanently, i think it will be with a heavy heart as i leave knowing that i will never step back here as a resident of hall 12 again. oh, how emo.

and of the other thing that got me realising all of these time + age catching up thing was looking though my friends pictures in facebook. i finally reactivated my account, yes. not v used to how it works, but seeing many of my old friends n classmates whom i was once close to, and how our lives are so different now, when back then in secondary/jc it seemed all the same. there are those who got married, those who got kids, those who have migrated, those who went for exchange in usa, those who are working... everyone seems to be on a diff path, diff level of life, with diff dreams and diff friends.. and my life is just about to begin... my life as a fully responsible, no more spoon/allowance feeding, independent, can get married, adult. it scares me, no doubt. i opened the door this morning and it struck me that i get older by 1 day everyday i do that, and every day adds up to years.. it just felt so depressing and i wished i could go back to being 16.

see, that was me when i was 17. haha, we loved to take neoprints back then. i cant believe i uploaded this as my email pic. hope that no1 acty saw that! LOL.

time just seems to fly faster after every year. if one year is supposed to feel like 365 days, each year it seems to feel less, like 300 days = 1 year, and then 280 days = 1 year, that kind. even my complexion is taking a beating. and slowly i wont be able to dress in certain ways anymore.. it just isnt too appropriate to wear vests or street fashion style when u are in ur mid-20s, or is tht just me? so i am so going to wear those items i have to death, while i can. and in the meantime, start storing up on more corporate looking and conservative but smart buys.

i guess thats enough of the topic. i could go on and on about how i fear getting old, but i think i'll cross the bridge when i reach it.

So a couple of movies to share.

Must love dogs. 3.5/5 stars personally.
cuz its funny, (not that the script is esp funny but its just light hearted) has a really huge dog called mother theresa (yeah haha), and its a heart warming love story, of how people still find love again despite failed love.

my 2 fav quotes from the movie:
"i think your heart grows back bigger ya know, once you get the shit beat out of you. And the universe lets your heart expand that way, cause thats the function of all this pain and heartache that you go through and you gotta go through that to come out to a better place" (its true. the heart is stronger and more expansive than we thk. it allows us to love more than 1 person - hopefully not at the same time though!)

"I want to be in love. I want to wake up next to someone and see them smile, do the whole Sunday breakfast thing, go out and get the paper, stay in bed together all day." (aww.. me too. does that mean i have to get married first? Coris... here we come! :D)

and oh, i think diane lane is reallly pretty. though shes already like 40+ but i think shes pretty for her age, and quite hot still. she reminds me abit of leni's sister (kinda forgot her name for the moment haha) but this picture is really sweet.

next movie - The notebook
4.2/5 stars personally
i felt very strongly towards this movie after i just watched it but now it has faded abit so i gave it 4.2 instead of 4.5 stars haha. but its really vvv touching, sweet, and shows how resistant love can be (even if only in movies)
awfully passionate lovers in the movie, and the guy's kinda cute, in a 1940s way. but it was the unexpected ending that really warmed my heart. cuz it is similar to my fav movie A moment to remember, where the girl got alzhemier's too, and had problems remembering her husband.. one moment she can rmb the nx she might think hes some pervert... damn sad.

do you know that A moment to remember is called eraser in my head in korean? haha.. but its really scary and i hope that i will nv get alzhemier.. it will be very heartbreaking for my family..

and moving on to fashion!! i want a clutch and a wallet!

i am not usually a fan of pink but it does look awfully good on these coach wallets!
it seems like i have converted to a fan of long 'ah-lian' wallets. lol

nice top!!

and i just could nt get enough of AA u neck dress! and then they brilliantly came up with the long sleeve version! after seeing Rumi don the black one, i decided it was gg to be mine! but i already got it in black short sleevce so deciding between forest and seablue, i went for the latter cuz the blue looks amazing. forest looks good too, but i am not sure i can carry off so much green. most people hardly wear green too. i dont wanna blend with the trees. haha.

asphalt looks not too bad ar! but dont know if the sleeves would be abit hard to wear. wanted to get a size bigger this time but the reviews say the shoulder part wil fall off its if too big.

and this for CNY! i am still very much in love with raspberry/plum colors. really hope it will turn out darker tho.

love this zipper platform. the caged effects are so hot, but it ran out of my size.

this one is slightly less hot but still nice in a dominatrix way hahah

and this is the latest drama i have been watching, besides Gossip Girl...
90210!! but its not as saucy, exciting, and def not as watchable in terms of fashion, but its still quite entertaining.

i think she's really pretty in a unique way.. she has the most style on 90210. most quirky personality as well. thats why i like her. haha her name is silver. cool huh. and i have her dress! n black! its the AA skater dress. silver actually looks good on her ah (duh)... but i look terrible in silver i thk. think my skin tone doesnt match. thats a pity but well i thk gold is nicer haha.

and look who they are with! nate archibald from GG... haha.. in real life.

okay time for bed. happy chinese new year.
and i miss you my friends. i wish we cld hang out more..
people like shuen, en, rachel... i really miss our jc days...

goodbye or see you,
I'll be your best kept secret or your biggest mistake.

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