a moment to remember

~songs in my head~

没有地球太阳还是会绕.

But I don’t care what they say. I’m in love with you.

I just wanna fall and lose myself Laughing so hard it hurts like hell Forget about everything and run away, yeah

~ MOTTO ~
:: if you have tried your best, there's no need for regrets. ::

~ THOUGHTS ~
By ourselves we are too weak to hold our own even for a moment.

"And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God" (Romans 8:28)

For what it's worth, it was worth all the while.

"God has given, God has taken, blessed be the name of God" (Job 1:21)

"I know what I’m doing. I have it all planned out – plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for.” (Jeremiah 29:11)

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:: juz taking a moment to remember ::

Thursday, September 25, 2008 8:16 PM

de-press-ing & ex-haus-tive

sorry for the lack of updates. dont feel like blogging recently. so much to think about and handle for fyp and my future. i really have no more motivation to study le, its just those same old modules teaching you things that one can easily find on google, and its like all i can think about is graduating, finding a good job.. earning big bucks solves alot of problems.

its sometimes so de-presss-ing to be stressed over fyp. and weekends are ex-haus-tive even though i already quit my part time job. so shdnt i have more time and be less tired, but how come i still feel very tired on sunday?

i know though i am saying i cant wait for graduation, before i know it, i will be saying wow time flies.. cant believe i have spent 4 yrs in ntu... its already october, and then come april, its byebye to CS and hall 12. still rmb the times i stepped into those places respectively, one with apprehension (cuz i was gg for interview and test), the other with curiosity.

anyway, last wednesday was our 6 mths tog. time really flies, sometimes it still seems so surreal that so much has happened before that. and i think back to the times we spent, from talking everyday on MSN while i was interning, to silent awkward talks at Canteen A & NIE, to eating ice cream at serangoon garden, talking outside mac till 3 am... darling said he nv knew beforehand i wld be so ________ and so ________ and so ________. ahaha alot of things u din expect huh! we had a yummy dinner at chomp chomp last friday to sorta celebrate and the food was sooooo nice. so hungry now. but still bedok nrth 85 sting ray and ba chor mee are still calling out to me, must visit one of these days.

some pictures now. i like the guy's hair... so toussled..

and i love her shoes.. contemplating if i shd get it.. m very sad cuz my booties that i ordered long ago are OOS.. why!!

the white/grey one is what i want... tho the brown and blue one on the model also looks very nice but i dont quite like the blue laces.. why cant they be white or sth!! dilemmmassss..

and i was pretty hooked on ebay last few days but due to the bidding nature of ebay and theres so many richer bidders than me i cldnt possibly join in... plus its all USD (wic is now rising) and still have to pay for shipping here, wic is damn ex.

seeing her booties makes me sad abt my oos ones:(

leather jacket where art thou?

super cute dog right.. its stuffed toy. haha i want a real one. mambo.

i din think those ankle boots cld look so decently nice when worn. now too late for regrets cuz f21 has no more of those.

wooo leather skirt i bidded it to 15.50 leh but haiz some1 else overbid me le.. sian, i think it will go up to 120 la.. no way i am gettin that.. tho i love leather skirts

very special monochrome jacket

looking at this sashimi salad makes me drool again!!!

celebrating wx's bday at sushi tei

this is my $12 scarlet red dress that i wanted to blog abt last week but toooo lazy. its $12!! freaking fell in love with the cutting and color the moment i saw it hanging on the mannequin at eunos's This Fashion. super nice, got the salesgirl to remove it off the mannequin for it cuz last piece. i went home immed tried it and fell in love with how it looks one me... really didnt expect red to look okay on me.. maybe cuz i m fair. but its definitely a keeper in my wardrobe for now! i am fascinated with red color. somemore i can wear during CNY if i cant find anything else to wear. lol.

cant stop camwhoring with the very red and very pretty dress la. satin somemore.

they say i look like a bride here. but i think a red gown would be overkill man!! i still very traditional, wanna wear white on my wedding (and now i want a pool-side or outdoor garden-style wedding dinner. no freezing aircon and boring hotel ballrooms for me) i want grecian style wedding dresses leh. and then usually brides will change outfit ma, i probably change into erm, royal purple or teal/dark turquoise.. shd be very lovely. (okay, i m dreaming away)

anyway so excited abt my 'prada' bag. its lovely right. slightly melancholy. suits my moody days.

cute jumpsuit!! but the last time i had the black one from topshop, there was very negative response from zhiwei... what will noel say haha... i think it will be a yes, cuz jumpsuits are short.
can see legs.

cute anchor bikini!!

like this skater dress.

kate moss new collection. the 3rd dress looks fab on her.

i wan polo dress.

nice shoes! i want the road sign too!

the white/black booties acty look quite okay ah.

this ombre dress is veryyyy nice!!

anyway, today the 7th of october, marks the first year after the break up with zhiwei. i feel very ambivalent towards him nowadays, though i wld still like to be gd friends but somehw i dont quite believe that we are up to it. time really passes so fast and exactly one year ago on this date i got my heart very very broken for a few horrid and unforgettable (in a bad way) months. i rmb the tears i shed (or shd i use the word sobs) and the pleas and the talks we had, i still sometimes think the times we went out aft breakup seemed so hypocritical and fake, on hindsight. and i still hate to think that i might have been fooled and led on.. but i guess i was the one who let myself be led on bcuz i loved him that much back then.

its very sad when girls no longer value themselves as individuals but deem their worth dependent on how their bf treats them. i wish all girls including myself will always remember that we shd not put ourselves down becuz of love. true love is something that will help you become a better person and be more confident. but to think that we are unloved/ugly/unworthy of love just cuz someone rejects us is wrong. anyway in any case, i am glad that everything is over for 1 yr already. time moves on, people move on, and may both of us be happy apart.

goodbye or see you,
I'll be your best kept secret or your biggest mistake.

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