a moment to remember

~songs in my head~

没有地球太阳还是会绕.

But I don’t care what they say. I’m in love with you.

I just wanna fall and lose myself Laughing so hard it hurts like hell Forget about everything and run away, yeah

~ MOTTO ~
:: if you have tried your best, there's no need for regrets. ::

~ THOUGHTS ~
By ourselves we are too weak to hold our own even for a moment.

"And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God" (Romans 8:28)

For what it's worth, it was worth all the while.

"God has given, God has taken, blessed be the name of God" (Job 1:21)

"I know what I’m doing. I have it all planned out – plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for.” (Jeremiah 29:11)

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:: juz taking a moment to remember ::

Saturday, June 07, 2008 2:25 PM

closing that chapter

so we had the meetup today at 11am
went to his house get my stuff, choose 1 out of the 2 photos i requested from him that we took in the classroom in jc
it was not that weird being in his house
no haunting memories

then we went to siglap gelare
sat there and talked about what happened to us
asked him questions i wanted to know
tell him the truth about how i already knew some stuff
we both were very honest about our feelings
and it was very relieving
we joked about my weird dress sense and then there were 2 dogs there
one of which climbed onto me and he was so cute!! i played with him and stroked him

honestly i was abit sad during the conversation and i think so was he
but we knew and said out loud we dont have any feelings for each other
and we know that we are too different and we are better off apart
we were just nostalgic and abit saddened by the change of events
the ultimate reason why we ended was cuz his feelings faded for me (cuz he felt we werent clicking well that time) and that his family din like me

so now i know everything i feel really glad, relieved and i feel theres closure
i feel like i really want this person to be happy
we shared alot before and both of us dint bear any grudge towards each other for our mistakes
we were happy before
and we both decided we would still meetup and talk and remain as good friends
from now on, thats what we would be
and i am happy with this
rather than just us saying goodbye and being strangers
now we say 'see you' and be good friends
we had our last hugs just like the closure we should have had
it felt different, more like hugging a good friend whos gg to migrate and whom you had very fond memories with, rather than an intimate r/s hug.. it felt quite weird to hug this person in another context, but it was a comfortable, one last time kind of thing.

i feel renewed, i feel like a new person gaining the courage to really go love freely again
and not fear the worst... i m glad we had the courage to do this after so long and ironed things out and now we just want the best for each other
hes happy with his gf and i m happy for him
its not painful nor hurting
sad yes, but just cuz we never imagined the scenario today
when we met 4 years ago...

its kind of cool that we can still be gd friends though we din end well
but all the sadness and hurt were a thing of the past.
now that chapter is closed and buried. now i will begin a new chapter.
it feels really good to face fear in the face and be able to overcome it rather than surrender to it

goodbye AND see you,
I'll be your best kept secret.

Labels: growing up, if love wasnt so atrocious I would have stayed blind