a moment to remember

~songs in my head~

没有地球太阳还是会绕.

But I don’t care what they say. I’m in love with you.

I just wanna fall and lose myself Laughing so hard it hurts like hell Forget about everything and run away, yeah

~ MOTTO ~
:: if you have tried your best, there's no need for regrets. ::

~ THOUGHTS ~
By ourselves we are too weak to hold our own even for a moment.

"And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God" (Romans 8:28)

For what it's worth, it was worth all the while.

"God has given, God has taken, blessed be the name of God" (Job 1:21)

"I know what I’m doing. I have it all planned out – plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for.” (Jeremiah 29:11)

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:: juz taking a moment to remember ::

Thursday, May 29, 2008 3:16 PM

so much came and went that i m losing track

in the end, no kushinbo yesterday due to full house so we went waraku instead. and everywhere was having sales, i shall try to keep some budget for real shopping and not use all online so that i can really stick to my budget and not overspend.

my recent fashion obsession: ankle tie espadrilles. they are so pretty and it will just go well with a mini and long long legs (a pity i dont have!) and the lace up ribbon idea is sweet, sexy, and feminine at the same time. siting says the trend is one year ago liao but i dont care one, all the more theres no trend i wanna wear, so that no1 wears the same as me! haha. i rather wear what i like whenever i like than follow the trend.

its just so omgosh......

this one is simple fare but still alluring. why am i such a sucker for shoes. i think i need a big shoe cupboard next time. dont know why but seeing a pair of heels fit so well, with little things like ankle straps or T-bars, just make me feel so... erm... like happy and perfect.

and so i got my first pair of ankle tie espadrilles from Novo at 70% off yesterday. it was 69.90 and i got it at 21, which was really a bargain cuz Novo shoes are ex and their sales are really great sales. and because i must budget my expenses from now on, i really really struggled with the urge to get two other pairs of heels, one was a floral one with a brown T-bar that reminds me of those cosy cottage or floral fabric sofa (at only $18!!) and the jelly heels that Novo is known for, with an ankle strap (at only $25!). more so the jelly pair cuz it was black, and i need/want another black heels to match with everything. i was like 'think think think', dont 'feel feel feel'. and i walked out with a 'dont think u are walking out with one less shoes, but think that u already have one gd buy!'

BUT i am glad my heart din win the struggle because i must budget my expenses! (right piggy chan?) it was such a struggle but sometimes after u dont buy what u desire, u feel this sense of accomplishment like u defeated some enemy. in this case it was really tough tough tough because a) they are shoes, b) they are sooo 'cheap'. so much more worth than C&K sales which always run out of sizes or are just 10% off..

in love, find someone who will first accept you for who you are, and then learn to accept who you become as you change in life..

i just saw the above quote that i wrote somewhere after the last relationship. i think back then it really reflected how i felt. and what i wanted to look for in the next r.s. dont know if it is right to think this way. but in general, is to find some1 who wont give up on you and say byebye just cuz u become slightly different due to growing up/life's circumstances, but essentially u are still u.

oh and i wanted to say i realised i have the tendency to make myself forget negative or bad memories. i just kind of like pretend they never happened or the people never existed, in a desperate bid to make myself not rmb anything bad, cuz i dont like to dig up the past and talk abt it anymore. so by talking abt it less or not mentioning it ever again, it makes me more forgiving towards my own mistakes and bad memories. just forget forget and write it off the book, like they never happened. so when i try to recall for some reason, those memories are damn vague already. now i dont even write down bad memories in my diary so i wont rmb them nx time as they are not on record. so since jan till now i haven wrote any single thing that i know i will cringe upon reading. what an escapist.

goodbye or see you,
I'll be your best kept secret or your biggest mistake.

Labels: if love wasnt so atrocious I would have stayed blind, whoever invented fashion committed an atrocious crime