a moment to remember

~songs in my head~

没有地球太阳还是会绕.

But I don’t care what they say. I’m in love with you.

I just wanna fall and lose myself Laughing so hard it hurts like hell Forget about everything and run away, yeah

~ MOTTO ~
:: if you have tried your best, there's no need for regrets. ::

~ THOUGHTS ~
By ourselves we are too weak to hold our own even for a moment.

"And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God" (Romans 8:28)

For what it's worth, it was worth all the while.

"God has given, God has taken, blessed be the name of God" (Job 1:21)

"I know what I’m doing. I have it all planned out – plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for.” (Jeremiah 29:11)

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:: juz taking a moment to remember ::

Wednesday, May 21, 2008 12:09 PM

nothing ever stays the same

haven been blogging properly for awhile since last week cuz its been busy at work
plus we were shifting and it was kinda hectic, trying to pack and do up the presentation scheduled for today.

just some last shots at the old office. i stil remember, the first interview for PI i was supposed to go alchemy, same building as design bridge, same floor, but different side of the building. but i went wrong lift and out of the lift i saw the sign DesignBridge, which was the 2nd company i applied for but that time hadnt shortlisted me for interview yet. i was like wah so qiao, and so shocked i went wrong company. haha, then end up i still was selected for interview and eventually it was still my PI 'home' for the past 5 mths. it is abt another 1 mth before the PI officially ends but i m extending it till july. time really just seems to fly. hw did 5 mths just pass like that, and to think we were all so hyped plus worried that PI will be sucky. but its been a really interesting and enjoyable PI, i wld say 99% happiness and only 1% unhappiness due to work/certain not so nice ppl. i m glad my supervisor and colleagues i worked with in the first 3 mths was esp esp nice, and i do miss working with some of them cuz of some restructuring of projects within the company.

i still rmb the very very first day of PI, me and eunice introduced to zul & zaidi, and we went into the meeting room and cosy corner for the project review, blur blur and just listened.. and then i had a 'crush' (hahah not really a crush la of course) on zaidi, who later left (n i pretended to be sad cuz no more eyecandy), but now is freelancing 1 mth with us. and how zul always try to irritate me and how eric is always 'wary' of me when i call him. haha. alot of memories within these 5 mths and it feels sometimes like its a real job (minus alot more responsibilities, late nights and extra work, i know) and i will definitely feel really sad when i leave as it has been such an enjoyable time and i will miss seeing those nice nice ppl. (cuz it cld be such a permanent thing. even if i do come back 1 yr later, things/pple might have changed.) but i have been thinking abt it, and my gut feeling just hopes that if 1 yr later i can come back to db, the offer wld be a gd one to take up, bcuz in terms of env and benefits and people, i think its ones of the nicest company around (both the company itself and the company of the pple). i thk i wld like to work here, and i think i cld really forsee myself in this line. plus can get to travel for work, at least can get a breather sometimes.

ok, enough of PI. think i will have more to say when i really leave haha. oh and look at me modelling the sample. i just look the black & white contrast, white black white black white box black shoes. hehe. (siting's dress btw)

alright, today i was at one shop near my office (the only downside is that theres very/no chinese food ard here!) and then i saw this shop that sells many many basket bags like the kate spade ones below. and i saw one that is very pretty, in white and it features a pull-string bag inside. i want! i gotta go see it again. its quite classic. why pay 600 for a small kate spade one. when they are both prob made in china and use same material and same cost price. why isnt it my birthday yet! so i can make a wishlist HAHAH.

i so want a hoodie but i just cant bear to think i will not get to wear such a pretty thing often when i grad. just another one of those things i like but will never get to own cuz my brain (think practicality! mileage!) won the battle against my heart (lust, desire, love for all pretty stuff). hahaha

ahh time to pay my roomie a tribute. its been armmm 3 weeks since she left? she wrote a postcard on 16 may n i gt it yest. haha Thankyou muacks and my sister tot it was an ad and wnted to throw it away till she saw "dear sh.." hahaha. heng ar. its not that i acc my darling 'no. 2' everyday okay, its cuz my internet at hm in my sis rm and i cant get my router to work and so i hardly go online after work. but u can use skype to call me like last time right. ha. n mu chun where got on postcard, that one so ugly, cannot be him! haha.

and i m sad, digital age killed the polaroid. :(
as much as i wld like to keep the polariod, but it just doesnt make much sense to keep a white elephant
its such a pity that they are phasing it out and i m angry cuz i haven had the luxury to enjoy it
i think the prints are still such a classic
i still have the polaroid taken during/after secondary in PRSS with the guys garette and qisheng they all and it is still like so ermm i duno how to describe
fancy keeping a photo that doesnt even have me inside hahaha
well at least theres lomography now but i dont know how long it will last
now that im working in kampong glam theres quite alot of nice interesting shophouse to shoot here. but my camera is in japan!

just some thoughts i scribbled yest...

sometimes when u are angry it is really hard to think straight and u just haf this urge to say all the mean stuff and use bad words that u will regret but sometimes maybe the best thing to do is to both say lets stop talking abt this because we have very diff opinions and we are just angry and unable to communicate effectively now. and u know, go cool down and be apart for a while. and during this time, sometimes u realise the topic is too silly to quarrel over or someone may realise that he/she has not been very nice/reasonable. sometimes its hard to compromise, or even to decide whos the reasonable one..

but maybe at the end of the day, we shd all thk abt are we quarrelling over sth that affects this r.s? (or just something that hardly ratters it, or sth nt even related to us)
- are we just arguing based on our feelings (wic i m guilty of sometimes) or logic and reason. - whether its really worth spending the time and effort to argue over sth that will only strain the r.s i admit i m too strong willed at times, maybe i m too opinionated. at times i need to look at the bigger pic i guess and swallow my pride and realise love is more valuable than opinion/perception.

do OT today. need to finish up my report but work has been too busy and i m such a procrastinator at night. what to do, esp now i realise i have been mistaken all the time, they only give a pass/fail and not ABC grades for PI. and suddenly all the pressure is taken off, but i m also disappointed that they just give pass/fail. well, gd and bad la.. at least now i just write a decent sounding report can already but i must really really write sth out man! a few more days till freedom, and den start to crack my head over fyp. :(

i just rather be working full time now than to go back to sch for another yr.

goodbye or see you,
I'll be your best kept secret or your biggest mistake.

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