a moment to remember

~songs in my head~

没有地球太阳还是会绕.

But I don’t care what they say. I’m in love with you.

I just wanna fall and lose myself Laughing so hard it hurts like hell Forget about everything and run away, yeah

~ MOTTO ~
:: if you have tried your best, there's no need for regrets. ::

~ THOUGHTS ~
By ourselves we are too weak to hold our own even for a moment.

"And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God" (Romans 8:28)

For what it's worth, it was worth all the while.

"God has given, God has taken, blessed be the name of God" (Job 1:21)

"I know what I’m doing. I have it all planned out – plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for.” (Jeremiah 29:11)

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:: juz taking a moment to remember ::

Wednesday, March 12, 2008 10:54 AM

the best way to get even is to forget

time really FLIES
its already the 3rd month into this 'new' year, 2008
lucky i didnt waste the past month being sad.
today is the 12th
one more month to the next 12th, and then i can finally say phew
supposedly it should have been a celebration date, 4 years. (abit cant believe i was in it for so long)
but if two people are not happy tog, they might as well be happy apart
i'm putting a big red full stop to this story, dream, whatever it cld possibly still mean.
and get on with life,
to be the most beautiful wreck you've ever seen. hahaha. i love this sentence.

yesterday i work OT until 7plus la, damn.... latest i ever stayed in the office. then rushed to meet siting and go shop shop in town, but nothing much to see nor buy. only bought black flats, and wanted to buy this maryjane suede heels which siting absolutely refused to let me. say that i always buy shoes only when i go out. hahaha.. my weakness. and then we took bus 14 to her hse but just 5 mins into the ride, the bus driver bumped into this car and had to get down to resolve it (poor uncle). the stayover was reallyyy too short! must be the can stay up till 4 am kind kkk??? but kinda fun cuz i like her double decker bed, and i stole 3 dresses from her to wear! she got more than me lor hahaa... and i was telling her if only they have dd bed in hall, then she reminded me of triple room haha... sigh.. a potential prob nx sem.

that day i wore my aldo red heels to work and then to hall appreciation night.
zul asked me 'How do you walk in that?' and i didnt know how to reply.. so i said 'errr... i dont walk' haha.. makes no sense, i know!
but luckily david asked me to buy that, cuz i think its gorgeous and considering that it was 50% off, it was a great buy.

i must absolutely refrain from buying 2 pairs of shoes fr forever21 website and just buy ONE to test the size first. sigh although i think by that time the other one would have gone OOS. oh well at least i can see the boots on wenxin's feet and just control my urge to kill her if they fit her and not me. (cuz she's one size smaller) damnit why not the same size!

hmm recently nothing much interesting happened... thinking that the yr 4s are already going to graduate and leave hall in like another 2 more months.. so sad, i will really miss them! i think hall life will be quiet (for us yr 4s-to-be) next [academic] year... since only a few pathetic us left.. and wondering when it will be my turn to leave. still remember when i first came into hall 12, my ogl and sa were weixin, cyndi, joel, jieming, sally, yide etc... then some of them only yr 2s or yr 3s. now is like some already grad, and some are graduating. i feel quite amazed that i have spent like 3 years in ntu already.
in this period, there were so many things that happened. met new friends, survived editing madness, joined cheerleading and foc, changed hall rooms 3 times, made mistakes, lost friendships, fell out of love, got a quite fab internship, and so on... i've experienced quite abit.

they say love cannot be forced to happen, cuz you fall in(to) love. i think it is true. i dont have much expectations anymore. as of now at least my life wont flutter away just cuz i'm not attached. it still has purpose! haha. feeling happy, and being able to laugh as if this is the only feeling you know how to express, is great!

i've certainly come a long way, much longer than i realised. somehow i became more optimistic. there's always something new to look forward to. and new memories.

lets see how tonight goes... dont too awkward can already! haha.

it makes me feel great that i am feeling brave and willing to face it all. its over. the months down the road, let me start turning those images into just friends, and one day i will be able/ready to be normal talking friends.

goodbye or see you,
I'll be your best kept secret or your biggest mistake.

Labels: growing up, i have atrocious friends, if love wasnt so atrocious I would have stayed blind, The more we study the more we discover our ignorance. but ignorance is bliss so we should study more.