a moment to remember

~songs in my head~

没有地球太阳还是会绕.

But I don’t care what they say. I’m in love with you.

I just wanna fall and lose myself Laughing so hard it hurts like hell Forget about everything and run away, yeah

~ MOTTO ~
:: if you have tried your best, there's no need for regrets. ::

~ THOUGHTS ~
By ourselves we are too weak to hold our own even for a moment.

"And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God" (Romans 8:28)

For what it's worth, it was worth all the while.

"God has given, God has taken, blessed be the name of God" (Job 1:21)

"I know what I’m doing. I have it all planned out – plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for.” (Jeremiah 29:11)

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:: juz taking a moment to remember ::

Monday, November 05, 2007 9:28 PM

with the passing of each day, i'll emerge stronger

something meaningful that i saw on someone's blog, and its quite comforting.

"But for some people, there are no real good-byes. I think if you have a meaningful experience with someone else, a true communication, they are with you forever in a way. We are all a part of each other in ways we'll never know."

i guess it is true to a certain extent, even though like the last sentence says, we will never know.

anyway, i just passed another weekend by myself. and another sunday at work without tears (well i almost did, but its still much better as compared to the past few weeks)

though it was not that easy to survive the demons alone, but then again i was not that alone.

maybe its really true that God takes away some, and gives you some.

my sister and i have never been so close, she's really supportive and nice to me now (actually all along too, but its like the peak now) and we listened to each other with tears on sat night, something we never did before.

thanks to shuenyun too. you really know what i am going through. i hope that by the time you go canada, i will feel much stronger, if not i will have less one person to support me.

thanks to wenxin and siting too, always being around to listen to me.

sister says mother is worried about me. i am starting to see that i didnt lose the entire world.

i had a lovely time with en and shuenyun last thurs, we went to MOF (minstry of food, no kidding!) and though japanese food reminds me of the saddest memories, but i am trying to deassociate things.

from what i said 1 month ago that i would stubbornly hang on, to now, has been such a long yet fast journey. time really flies. but it takes much more to heal a wound. they say it takes a moment to fall in love with someone, but forever to forget that someone. and its not that i dont have enough determination to hang on, but i am feeling like things are not entirely within my control or say anymore.

i guess i just have to find my way out of this darkness, slowly but surely. its been a great time, but maybe one day i will know why its not meant to be. i am starting to question, was i too naive? right now, i need to put away all these memories and thoughts. maybe when the feelings etc settle down, we will be able to see things in a different perspective. at least its not tragic, no one died or anything...

maybe in dec, i will take out everything, read/look through them, cry a great deal, and then put everything (that i never thought i will have to put away) in a box and then just wait for time to mend my heart...

Signing off,
no more ink.

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