a moment to remember

~songs in my head~

没有地球太阳还是会绕.

But I don’t care what they say. I’m in love with you.

I just wanna fall and lose myself Laughing so hard it hurts like hell Forget about everything and run away, yeah

~ MOTTO ~
:: if you have tried your best, there's no need for regrets. ::

~ THOUGHTS ~
By ourselves we are too weak to hold our own even for a moment.

"And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God" (Romans 8:28)

For what it's worth, it was worth all the while.

"God has given, God has taken, blessed be the name of God" (Job 1:21)

"I know what I’m doing. I have it all planned out – plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for.” (Jeremiah 29:11)

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:: juz taking a moment to remember ::

Sunday, August 26, 2007 5:18 PM

things have been happening so fast that i have no time to breath

There's like a million things for me to do.. esp in terms of studies.. all the campaigns and projects confuse me because i forget what module deals with what. and i haven touch my textbooks.

but how come there's like not enough time for me to deal with all these things? maybe cuz emotions always drain me..

yesterday at the DND bash (the 1st one i attended in hall 12) it was really fun. dont know why but maybe when one has problems, one will think clubbing/drinking is like one solution. or a short escape. after sally treated me to some tequila thingy that i had to gulp down (and i never gulp anything down), and they sabo me consecutively at cai quan, i felt stoned and sleepy lor. and sally was vv high cuz clemence treated her to some super lethal drink, den she started saying 'mybday just over so she wants to treat me -_-'...

then when everyone finally began to dance, i was swaying lah... i just shouted at everyone, partly i was high, partly the music was damn loud, and when they shouted back into my ears, my ears were very painful lah! oh and i also v high and shouted to two freshies weixiang and dehong.. cuz i was wondering where all the hall 12 ppl go to!??! and i saw a pretty girl too.. haha sorry no shuai ge.. hmm and i always wonder the club is so dark, how guys bio girls? i cant even see clearly. but i must really thank siting, roland wong, hongda, alvin leow, ruifang, shujing, caddie, ben, christine and my SP victor ma! for taking care of me and surrounding me in that tiny circle so i wont sway my way out somewhere. oh and of cuz jarren too, for sending me up to my hse..

but seriously i can rmb everything that happened last night.. and the things i said.. when i got home, i bath and fell aslp but i was like awake and floating that kind of sensation. and den my limbs all feel heavy and numb. and i woke up still foggy.. i think nx time if we ever club again, we shd go on weekday.. cuz sunday i need to work la.. so cannot make it..

hmm, we also went to masquerade the costume shop b4 the bash, but then my dreams of being a ballerina were dashed cuz strangely they dont have the kind of sweet, pink/cream ballerina top, only got the tutu, which is very easily detached one.. so i tried on this skimpy looking black vest/top paired with a black tutu, and they say i look like corpse bride/gothic ballerina.. haha i really like the tutu leh, but in the end i found another costume.... shall not reveal it.. wait for pics or something.. but i need to exercise or not eat to wear it. hahaha..... wenxin's one is even more powerful, cannot wear bra.... whee what she wearing? wanna find out? hahaha..... but its kinda big and has the 'can can' one.. COOL rite

got some uncertainties ongoing in my life now, but maybe i should channel my energy into other matters instead.. i dont know if i am right to hold on, sometimes i dont know what i am holding onto, i think its a habit, i also think its too hard for me to give up a perfect dream, i dont know.. i feel like going GSS too, and now i m considering to join Welfare Service Club's Overseas Volunteer Expedition.. cuz its like OCIP tt i went during JC.. firstly its meaningful, and secondly, i m gg to grad soon, next time i wont such chances, and thirdly, it will be nice to get out of singapore to view this world more... so mk, u are v fortunate. haha...

but then if i join that, then i dont know if i can join foc...sigh..... but i also dont know if foc wants me.... haha..

right now, at least i know that choosing this major over journalism was nt a bad idea. and i at least have some idea what i want to do next time.. hopefully i can work towards the goal.

and i want to go running leh.. that day play vball with the guys made me realise how bloody long i haven exercise..............

and i bought damn alot of stuff recently..... shit..

Signing off,
no more ink.

Labels: dreams, growing up, if love wasnt so atrocious I would have stayed blind, The more we study the more we discover our ignorance. but ignorance is bliss so we should study more.