a moment to remember

~songs in my head~

没有地球太阳还是会绕.

But I don’t care what they say. I’m in love with you.

I just wanna fall and lose myself Laughing so hard it hurts like hell Forget about everything and run away, yeah

~ MOTTO ~
:: if you have tried your best, there's no need for regrets. ::

~ THOUGHTS ~
By ourselves we are too weak to hold our own even for a moment.

"And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God" (Romans 8:28)

For what it's worth, it was worth all the while.

"God has given, God has taken, blessed be the name of God" (Job 1:21)

"I know what I’m doing. I have it all planned out – plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for.” (Jeremiah 29:11)

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:: juz taking a moment to remember ::

Tuesday, March 18, 2008 3:24 PM

your magic just doesn't cast the same spell anymore

gradually day by day i am starting to realise that the things that used to really affect me
dont have the same effect on me anymore
i saw more of their photos, a ton of her photos.
somehow i didnt experience the crushing feeling, or the unbelievable anguish that i felt when i first saw the first photo.
i didnt question or wonder how he behaves with her
and compared it to how he behaved with me
maybe cuz i cannot imagine us together anymore
and its not strange to see him hugging someone else anymore

the new girl is in adm.
he said i was weird, so arty farty isnt weird la.
he said my vest was ugly, so hers isnt.
he said he like long hair, but somehow her short hair is more valuable than mine.
but really, its okay
no doubt she seems like a nice girl and there must be traits he like abt her, despite all those. (or maybe love just blinds people)
anyway i thought we looked more matching hahaha
but really, its okay
taste and preference can either go up or go down
he can be happy with her, cos i am happy with my life too
i dont need him to be happy anymore
and my life still revolve without his presence.
it makes me pissed though that he said those condescending, egoistic stuff to me last week
but then again i dont wish to taint the gd memories too much
its sad for any relationship if love becomes hate in the end.
amicable would be good enough, though.

like i told him, i may not understand everything,
so much has happened but everything, just feels like, its O-V-E-R
maybe cuz i know that things have changed
and it wld be a very scarred relationship even if we get back again
ignoring reality is the next best thing to changing it
since i cannot change anything, i wont harp on it
i want new beginnings
to be able to start anew is as good as a second chance

as for other matters, i am unable to decide black or white.
sometimes its white, but some radar will go off and send off warning lights
so i go back to black
maybe its just really grey
time might tell. or maybe i just got to risk it. maybe fall again.
cuz if i over-protect myself and lock myself up in self-defense
then no one would get to me
sometimes maybe we all need to live crazily, walk to the edge without fearing that we would fall, because without risks, you would never experience nor achieve results. and without falling, you would never know how much it could hurt and become wiser.

dance like no one's watching
love like you've never been hurt
work like you don't need the money

and i know my friends all root for me. :)

goodbye or see you,
I'll be your best kept secret or your biggest mistake.

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