a moment to remember

~songs in my head~

没有地球太阳还是会绕.

But I don’t care what they say. I’m in love with you.

I just wanna fall and lose myself Laughing so hard it hurts like hell Forget about everything and run away, yeah

~ MOTTO ~
:: if you have tried your best, there's no need for regrets. ::

~ THOUGHTS ~
By ourselves we are too weak to hold our own even for a moment.

"And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God" (Romans 8:28)

For what it's worth, it was worth all the while.

"God has given, God has taken, blessed be the name of God" (Job 1:21)

"I know what I’m doing. I have it all planned out – plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for.” (Jeremiah 29:11)

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:: juz taking a moment to remember ::

Thursday, March 20, 2008 6:00 PM

when theres nothing more to burn, you have to set yourself on fire.

i just wanted to record down that i went jogging on monday hahaha
my stamina reduced again after not running last week due to sucky rainy weather
but in the end managed to push myself to run 10 rounds.
yay haha. :)
i need more discipline so i can have nice legs!

and had self-cooked pasta with olive oil for 2 nights straight and was not tired of it.
had home-cooked dinner by mummy yesterday, one of the rare times
and my sister so lovingly surprised me and prepared breakfast (2 eggs, ham and sandwich) for me this morning! *hugs*
and i have been busy trying to schedule in friends here and there. constance this saturday, and en has FINALLY arranged ktv me for 5th april (like weeks in advance la!) and i m meeting kenneth (sorry sw! haha) for waraku nx friday to catchup. i still own hongda a treat too..
these days i really feel so grateful and blessed cuz i realised that i have many gd friends! they say the nicest, most supportive things to me, and they want my company :) i love them!

the top worry now is my fyp... sigh
somethings didnt go according to supposed agreement/plan so now siting & i are stuck and we need to find new project mates. which is quite a big problem cuz a) we are not that close to alot of them. b) they would have formed their own groups anyway. c) we dont want to be stuck with lousy project mates. its a YEAR-long project, mind you. so yeah, big headache, and also have to start thinking of what we wanna do for fyp, find tutor, etc. but no groups formed, how to???!! didnt think that we have to start worrying abt it now, its march for goodness sake :(
hence, i am reluctant to go back to sch nx sem, final year seems darn stressful. i can visualise the late nights again, the rush, brain dead state and no more free weekday/weekend nights like my life now. sigh, internship life is still good.

alot of people have expressed interest in my new bed, want to try them, or slp on them
hahah mayb i should organise bed-warming session huh
so far got wenxin, constance, roland (plus elsa), mike as principal and still recruiting!! :)
why i say mike as principal?
cuz its a uniform-theme mass bedding session wahahha. some lame joke that roland and i talked about. i am of course the sweet16 student. :D but apparently roland says he's a primary school teacher so i have to reduce my age by half to 8 yrs old.

these days i've been experiencing alot of 'truths'
its like, i will be having conversations with friends
and what they say will just strike a chord with some feelings i have
or i'll be reading articles and wham i will think 'hey thats sooo true'

and yesterday night proved to me that i am indeed recovering
i read letters and comics he gave me about 2-3 years ago
i didnt feel pain nor hurt, i didnt cry
i just felt really touched when i witnessed the things he said, the hopes he had for our relationship before.
i dont question why anymore
asking why has no end to it, i have accepted that things have changed
and i felt very blessed that during the times we were tog
we had such happy and memorable times
i dont blame God for taking him away anymore
i thank God for putting us together and for letting me experience those times
nothing's gonna change the fact that we once were happy and i believe somewhere, he still has me in his heart, people cannot forget every memory
now i am just gonna wait for the day we become friends again.
nothing more than just remembering that we shared the past before.
i fell, but i learnt and now i have picked myself up.
i no longer feel numb, though sometimes things feel like it was such a long surreal dream
but at least i woke up!
so can you, shuen... :)
i believe in you. everyone has the ability to heal, but maybe its hidden deep inside. you gotta dig.
it really feels great to be able to accept & move on..

once again, tomorrow is Gd friday. 4 years ago, on a leap year as well, i had my first 'date' with him on Gd friday. hahah... its interesting that things are occuring around gd friday again this leap year.. but let's see how today goes, cause i dont know what is going on anyway.

goodbye or see you,
I'll be your best kept secret or your biggest mistake.

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