a moment to remember

~songs in my head~

没有地球太阳还是会绕.

But I don’t care what they say. I’m in love with you.

I just wanna fall and lose myself Laughing so hard it hurts like hell Forget about everything and run away, yeah

~ MOTTO ~
:: if you have tried your best, there's no need for regrets. ::

~ THOUGHTS ~
By ourselves we are too weak to hold our own even for a moment.

"And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God" (Romans 8:28)

For what it's worth, it was worth all the while.

"God has given, God has taken, blessed be the name of God" (Job 1:21)

"I know what I’m doing. I have it all planned out – plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for.” (Jeremiah 29:11)

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:: juz taking a moment to remember ::

Monday, January 14, 2008 9:51 PM

14 days into 2008

hmm at first i typed quite alot le, but i think those are too private and sad, so i put them in another blog.. they are not happy stuff anyway.. thinking of changing to a new blog at livejournal actually.. but i like mintyvintage.
and sometimes i think i am too busy catching up with the lives of others that i neglect to catch up with myself.
somehow i have been so busy that i am only updating now that its already the 3rd week of 2008
dont know busy with what also.

hmm, so far, 2008 hasnt been very great, i got some stunning news on ny eve
not really the way i wanted 2008 to start. but oh well.
the rest of days so far, good and bad.
lets just talk abt good.
i m happy at DBA..the people there are very nice, my office is cool + open concept, we play music all day loudly, ranging from jazz to black eyed peas to bjork to pussycat dolls. and u can change the music if u dont like. they have a mac just to play songs. my supervisor is also very nice and is not the "i wont listen to u cuz u are just an intern" kind. wonderful people. we got a huge flat, widescreen tv recently too in the meeting room.

i think i will learn quite abit and if i really take on such a job scope in future, i hope that i can get to travel too (cuz my supervisor also gets to travel to meet clients.)
although i would say the job scope is not really 100% related to mass comm per se, but it really depends on the company that u are in, since u can have it in advertising also. DBA is a branding company, which i can tell 10 people i am interning at a branding company and they will (all ten) go "huh?" haha. i m used to that, but its still rather ermm pek chek to explain cuz after explain they will still go "huh?" haha...

but its not that surprising cuz i myself haven really heard of a branding co before. its not advertising at all. but i am really glad that i came into DBA instead of our neighbour company which i applied for and was sad i didnt get in (cuz they made kenneth chia n the rest move books and dont know do what other rubbish anyway my company does branding strategy for companies (did u just go "huh?"), meaning they will design logos, packaging, uniforms, create positioning, define colors, photography styles etc for the brands. so for eg maybe NTU wants to rebrand itself. instead of being nanyang technological university, it can hire us to change its name to maybe nanyang international university, and then we can change the logo, blah blah the whole brand image of NTU or NIU. haha. i think this eg is good enough to explain.

as for my job scope, its project management and account servicing (or to put it in layman's terms, dealing with client and acting as middle man between client and our creative team). so far i did timeplans, budget (alot of numbers for maths idiot like me) and proposals.. not bad i think time at work passes quite fast. not to mention the coffee machine makes yummy coffee, i drink 2 cups each day. but can still sleep like pig at night. i want a coffee machine nx time too, but i guess my dream kitchen wont come true anymore.

anyway, i hope to spend a good 6 mths here. and hopefully i can leave for korea this holidays. things are not firm, but i think what will happen will happen lah. dont dare hope too much also. 2007 has been not so good overall, and looking back, i have come a long way. alot of regrets within the past 2 years. sometimes i wish i could have a chance to restart these 2 years, and i would have done alot of things differently. maybe then i wouldnt be in the state i am today. i realise i no longer know what is being happy, and how it feels. when people ask me if i m happy or unhappy mood, i just say normal. and thats how i feel everyday. neither happy nor unhappy. just like numb and normal. happiness seem so exclusive, so long forgotten. bliss, even more far away. but at least my days are passing. my friends are however very busy with school. so i will have to keep myself entertained haha.

i think come 2008 (okay its already here), i have changed alot, in terms of mindset, and beliefs. i'm very much apathetic, care-less, skeptical, jaded and still a pessimistic person. but maybe i have also become stronger. and i still hope at the end of this year, it wont be anything like last year or 2006. it will be happier. in 2007 n 2006, i had really good memories but also bad ones. good and bad comes in a package. maybe this year i wont have esp good ones le, just dont give me esp bad ones can le. come april this year, maybe i will be esp sad. its been something i have always look forward to, but now it is abit meaningless already. the significance of a special date is lost when only one person commemorates it. oh well. maybe, just maybe, things will have a chance to work out again. sometimes i still get foolish thoughts and imagine how that would be like, to get a chance to restart things.. haha i'm really silly.

i saw this online today. "God has given, God has taken, blessed be the name of God" (Job 1:21) yes, so true, God often takes something away from us, but also gives us abundance in other areas, however, we only thank him for good stuff, and forget to thank him for things He took away, cuz we blame him. guess its human nature. thats why we are humans and God is God.

ps: i'm very off online shopping now, something new ar! haha. i shd find new interests... maybe i shd aim to be a career woman! whee. (at least no books and projects for now haha! jiayou my friends!)

such a long post.. but i still feel i have stuff to say. go sleep le.. gd nite. shuen i miss u... pls take care in canada! :)

Signing off,
no more ink.

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