~songs in my head~
没有地球太阳还是会绕.But I don’t care what they say. I’m in love with you. I just wanna fall and lose myself Laughing so hard it hurts like hell Forget about everything and run away, yeah ~ MOTTO ~ :: if you have tried your best, there's no need for regrets. :: ~ THOUGHTS ~ By ourselves we are too weak to hold our own even for a moment. "And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God" (Romans 8:28) For what it's worth, it was worth all the while. "God has given, God has taken, blessed be the name of God" (Job 1:21) "I know what I’m doing. I have it all planned out – plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for.” (Jeremiah 29:11) Hit Counters |
:: juz taking a moment to remember ::
Tuesday, August 05, 2008 10:30 PM
a time to heal forgive me for this post, i know its the 1st post after a two-week hiatus but i need to rant and go on this catharsis process to let it all out... i am feeling so so much so much emotions coming from all sources overwhelmed, tired, exhausted mentally, burdened, stressed, emotional, surreal, weird, fear its just the waves keep coming nonstop, keep crashing upon the shore there's no time to rest, to pause, to wait. so much to do, so many people to placate, i cannot breath, everyone and everything seems to need my attention, i dont have enough time or air for myself. i need to help others, i need to tend to others, and i dont have enough for myself i am very tired sometimes i wish i could be left alone not tending to emails, sms-es, msn, blah time is not enough i have very low patience and tolerance recently very short-fused as well its draining me i also feel very stressed about fyp, and my last yr of school suddenly after 1 sem and more of not studying, i feel weird having to go back to modules and textbooks and all i am really envious of those who graduated and found jobs le... clearing their debts if they have, and earning money for future no doubt its an endless cycle once i start work, but i thk i wld feel better thking that i am clearing my debts rather than wasting more $$ during this last yr of study haiz... i keep wanting to move forward but yet i am also fearful theres alot of uncertainty in life nobody can tell us whether the path we are taking now, be it in studies, relationships, business, etc, are correct whether we would screw ourselves upside down whether we would be happy with our choices nobody can answer our questions i have even became 'undecided' about religion. almost ashamed to admit it but i just cant go ard saying i think i m a christian but i dont go church and yada yada... but i believe in God. it feels v hypocritical and i m not even sure that God really likes me now. so should i call myself a freethinker? i dont know. in times of desperation i still pray but i feel like a ungrateful wretch sometimes. praying only cuz i need a source of light to lit my dark path. last time i also went through such a period, alot of emotions and thoughts i thought that was it - the growing up, maturing aka troubling teenage phase dont tell me now its part II?!! the transition from child to teenage and now from teenage to young adult in a few more days i will be 22. but i still feel like i am 18, or maybe 20. but truth is age is catching up my skin is no longer as good, sadly my energy level has dipped i just cannot please everyone anymore no such energy please understand, i am only human too. please understand me, i am a emo freak, give me some time to be this way if i am this way, and some time to cheer up, show me some love and affection, dont ask me to snap out of it please.. please love me, as i am. and give me time, as i adjust to this new lifestyle. And then a hero comes along, With the strength to carry on, And you cast your fears aside and you know you can survive, So when you feel like hope is gone, Look inside you and be strong, And you'll finally see the truth that a hero lies in you. 0 wore their hearts on their sleeves <$BlogItemCommentCount$> Comments:<$BlogCommentBody$> By <$BlogCommentAuthor$>, at <$BlogCommentDateTime$> <$BlogCommentDeleteIcon$> |
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