~songs in my head~
没有地球太阳还是会绕.But I don’t care what they say. I’m in love with you. I just wanna fall and lose myself Laughing so hard it hurts like hell Forget about everything and run away, yeah ~ MOTTO ~ :: if you have tried your best, there's no need for regrets. :: ~ THOUGHTS ~ By ourselves we are too weak to hold our own even for a moment. "And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God" (Romans 8:28) For what it's worth, it was worth all the while. "God has given, God has taken, blessed be the name of God" (Job 1:21) "I know what I’m doing. I have it all planned out – plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for.” (Jeremiah 29:11) Hit Counters |
:: juz taking a moment to remember ::
Tuesday, July 12, 2005 12:43 PM
sailing the day away... such a long time since my last post..sorry to my frens who have told me recently tt they have been anticipating for me to blog... been thru a very busy period these 2 mths ++... before i blog, here's some entertainment & interesting articles i copied frm somewhr... be prepared for a long read... firstly. A very true conversation which we always hid in our hearts and never voice it out until............... If you see me walking the road with someone else It's not because I like his company It's because you're not brave enough to walk beside me If you hear me talking about him all the time It's not because he pleases me It's because you're too deaf to hear my heartbeat If you feel me falling with someone new It's not because I love him Because you're not there to catch me fall If you feel lost, I too am nowhere I too don't know where the road is going Are we gonna cross each other's path Or just completely turn around? Will we just let go of what we had Or go to the place where love is bound Don't let me walk with him It's you I want to walk with Don't let me talk of him It's you I want to talk with Don't let me fall for him It's you I want to fall in love with. So for u emotionally blind people out der here's what the answer shd be: "THE ANSWER" When you thought I wasn't brave enough to walk beside you I was behind you every step of the way Still filled with awe because of the beauty that stands before me When you thought I was too deaf to hear your heartbeat I didn't want to assume anything And I was afraid to lose our friendship When you thought I wasn't there to catch you It was because you never gave me the chance You never reached the bottom, you've already grabbed a branch If you feel like you are nowhere, I too am lost I too don't know where the road is we just going to turn around, Or are we gonna cross each other's path? Will we just let go of what we had Or go to the place where love is bound? Don't let me walk alone I want to walk by your side Don't let me talk of something else It's you I want to talk with Don't let me fall for someone else It's you I want to fall in love with. 2nd article. Are You A Reason, A Season, Or A Lifetime? When someone is in your life for a REASON. It is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally, or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend, and they are! They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part, or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered. And now it is time to move on. Then people come into your life for a SEASON.Because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn. They bring you an experience of peace, or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it! It is real! But, only for a season. LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons: things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person, and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant. next piece.. Chance or Choice?? When we meet the right person to love, when we're at the right place at the right time, that's chance.When you meet someone you're attracted to, that's not a choice. That's chance. Being caught up in a moment (and there's a lot of couples who get together because of this) is not a choice. That's also a chance.The difference is what happens afterwards. When will you take that infatuation, that crush, that mind-blowing attraction to the next level? That's when all sanity goes back, you sit down and contemplate whether you want to make this into a concrete relationship or just a fling. If you decide to love a person, even with his faults, that's not a chance. That's choice.When you choose to be with a person, no matter what, that's choice. Even if you know there are many people out there who are more attractive, smarter, and richer than your mate, and yet, you decide to love your mate just the same, that's choice. Infatuation, crushes, attraction comes to us by chance. But true love that lasts is truly a choice. A choice that we make.Regarding soul mates, there's a beautiful movie quote that I believe is so true about this: Fate brings you together, but it's still up to you to make it happen. I do believe that soul mates do exist. That there is truly someone made for you. But it's still up to you to make the choice if you're going to do something about it or not. We may meet our soul mates by chance, but loving and staying with our soul mate is still a choice we have to make. We came to the world not by finding someone perfect to love... BUT to learn how to love an imperfect person perfectly.. last article... Why Engineers make the best boyfriends... quite funny... Let me tell you why girls should eventually marry an engineer over a Law, Management, Arts or Medical School Graduate. He has three distinct advantages over the rest of the graduates. Advantage 1: Secure lifestyle An engineer boyfriend can provide you with a secure lifestyle. At 27 years old, an engineer probably has a respectable, stable job that gives him a high income to own a car, invest, have a comfortable life, and get married and buy a house too. Law graduates are still working as a lowly apprentice in law firm, most management graduates have just failed on their first business plan, the arts graduate is still looking for a job, and the medical school graduate is still living in a hospital. Advantage 2: Unmatchable industriousness An engineer boyfriend will dedicate an unimaginable amount of his time and effort to understand you. Engineers strain really really hard to understand their work. You can believe that they will try really really hard to understand women too, just like how they understand their work, once they believe that you are the one. So even if they don't understand you initially, they will keep on trying.Even if they still do not understand, they will figure out the correct method to keep you happy (e.g. buy diamond ring = 1 week's worth of happiness.) And once they find out the secret formula, they will just keep on repeating it so that the desired results appear. Unlike the Lawyer who will argue with you, the Management graduate who will try to control your spending, the Arts graduate who will 'change major', and the medical school graduate who will operate on you. And you know what, it's really so easy to make engineers believe that you are the 'one'. Say that you like one of their projects and they will be hooked to you forever. Advantage 3: An engineer boyfriend will never betray your trust. Let me first tell you what is wrong with the rest of the others - the lawyers will lie about everything, management graduates will cheat your money, the arts graduate will flirt, and you probably just look like another cadaver to the medical school graduate. Your engineer boyfriend is either too busy to have an affair, and even if he does, he is too dumb to lie to you about that. Hence, an engineer is the most secure boyfriend that you will ever find - rich enough, will keep on trying to understand and please you, has no time for affairs, and too dumb to lie to you.So girls, why procrastinate? Get an ENGINEER as your boyfriend! ok... hope those articles were quite interesting to u as they were to me..esp the engineer one...haha... i thk i caught a cold man..keep sniffing.. :( but b due to all the late nites last week... (went for freshman orientation camp FOC...) just for the record, i actually still got into SCI in the end... happy man.. i rec a call from NTU asking if i was stil interested... so of cuz i was...i was soooo happy tt time.. (quite some time ago...) cldnt believe i was so lucky.. the FOC tt i went for last week..most ppl there are from top jcs lor.. like HCJC, RJC, SAJC, etc..and v english speaking... my seniors told me its v hard to get into the course.. so i wondered hw come i got in..so lucky..v few tpjcians tho one guy in my OG was... the camp was quite fun and interesting they had this human clue do..whereby on the very first days we the freshies heard rumours and witnessed certain scenes that there is this senior couple who were falling out cuz the guy seems to get close to a freshie called elizabeth..then the girlfren was v jealous...den 2nd day, i realised alot of seniors tok abt tis matter v obviously in our face..tot it strange as usually these kinda ting they wont wan to spread to freshies so as nt to affect the camp ma..but no1 guessed it was all a play..till the whole ting climaxed..and the 'gf' cried n ran away after finding out the bf spent the whole day with the new freshie eliz.. den the whole camp v chaotic as we were moved from 1 area to another.den one of my og mates daniel (for some reason we don know at tt time) went to console the 'gf' and tried to hug her.. she pushed him away n shouted 'leave me alone'.. at tis pt, we were all dumbfounded..whats happening..and hw come daniel is involved?? after tis my OGLs actually revealed everting was an act..its a tradition to have tis kind of ting for every year's camp..at 1st i tot they just trying to cover up..cuz the whole ting was so real.. then aft tt, we began to realise its really an act..cuz they threw a body (made of newspapers) down with red paint splattered everywhere..and then got 'coroner' and 'police' acting like they were investigating..then we were given a task that we must act out a skit to find out who killed the 'bf'.. went to 2 stations to find out clues.. then, we felt so cheated.. and shocked.. anw, the couple was not really a couple la..just acting..and the elizabeth was actually pretending to b freshie.. daniel from my OG was actually nt freshie either..he's a 3rd year...den the interesting ting was the 'gf' in the whole story is actually really daniel's gf.. whole ting quite complex.. but i guess it was really interesting for a camp to come up with such an idea..i m quite interested to join next yr foc as a senior or OGL man..haha...anw, in the end my OG guessed correctly who killed the guy..it was the camp president who was supposed to be 'control freak'... we also went wakeboarding... (ok tried...) and kayaking, banana boat, and rock climbing..u noe i am like damn scared of the sea..then when i was trying out the wakeboarding i was like shit scared..even tho got life jacket..but then its just u and the big sea.. i had to try to relax after i flopped into the water.. damn salty.. the activity is v exp lor.. $65/hr for students.. altho i was interested to learn b4..but i thk its really too exp..plus i m so scared to drown.. then half way climbing the rock i was like shit suddenly got height phobia..u noe the feeling like its just u n the vertical rockwall and u feel like u suddenly must bcome spider man attach urself to the wall..i was freaked out wanted to just let go..but every1 was cheering for me..and we gained points i thk for each successful climb..so i just continued..and managed to climb to the top.. the 1st time i did rockclimbing was in p5..successful too... haha.. i dont thk i regret going for the camp..tho i thk i didnt get to noe my og ppl v well.. cuz overall despite me crying 3 times.. once due to homesick n wanting to go home cuz so tired n sian, i thk the camp was quite fun ..partly due to the seniors making us feel comfortable..they v frendly lor..and haf to thank my two OGLs Dong n zixuan.. they really v patient n took care of me.. i thk i was like a trouble in the camp.. sometimes v anti social n uncooperative..but i cld blame tt on my pms.. hope i will be more sociable when i go for hall camp next week..i thk i will b so tired.. sigh..but i m quite excited to move to hall.. (anw, i got hall12..any1 same hall as me??) tho i thk i will miss home n my tv..but den..its fun to b able to decor ur room n buy tings to make it comfy..at least hall12 is new lor..built in 2001.. lucky.. hall 7 rooms were like crap..so depressing.. peep into one senior's room n it was so so messy.. looked like a dump.. maybe shd get wenxin to hang up some of her art pieces haha..den our room will look artistic..lol.. gd idea huh... school's gg to start in 2 weeks..freaking scary i wld say.. cuz i an average student going to be with those top students.. hafing to adapt to a more english speaking env.. i thk i m excited n proud to finally b able to say i m a mass comm student.. but yet i fear nt being able to make it.. its been a long journey since i backed out of going poly for mass comm studies..telling myself i will go get a mass comm deg instead of a diploma.. going the jc road..to fulfill my dreams..i almost didnt make it..and had to settle for my 2nd choice..but God gave me an opportunity.. to pursue wat i want.. now i have finally come to that path..where ahead of me 4 years later..i will grad with that degree i wan.. i got tis incredible feeling in me.. also a feeling tt i wanna do so much.. hoping to learn good writing skills and interesting stuff like videoing and editing..and filming..and photography..i always wanted to learn some photography..but i was always timid to join an interactive cca.. thk i quite regret not joining a cca that cld helped me make more frenships n learn more skills.. but at least i went for the ocip trip..wic i consider to be my most distinguished activity in tpjc..haha.. also,bsides tis course and arts n social sci, i thk i really don know wat else i m interested in to do.. mayb business if i had maths..but i nv thk i will ever be an engineering student... i just wish i will find strength n motivation to try my hardest at SCI.. i dont aim to be an award-winning student, nor the top student.. tho i do wish i can get on the dean's list.. but my aim on a 'smaller' scale is just nt to give up just cuz others came fr a better jc and haf better A levels results than me.. to learn as much as i can..and to convert that learning into gd results..sth tangible to prove to myself i m nt wasting my time.. sth lyk tt.. honestly i dont thk i miss working life.. of cuz now i dun haf anymore income..but then working only temp for the past 6 mths..quite tiring..every weekend of mine is nt rest..but continue work for my family..n fulfill my commitments.. dear frens never ever thk i asked u out only cuz he is not available..its just tt its diff for me to find spare time to meet u all, tho i wish to..but i trust tt all of u will maintain the frenship bw u n me even tho we cant find the time sometimes to meet n talk.. so i mite ask u out cuz he's nt free..but i also cld have just spent the day myself slacking..why i bother to ask frens out rite.. so pls dont thk i make use of u all.. (i noe,leemei u told me b4 tt was a joke..but i hope u all wont thk tt way seriously).. time flies when u are busy i thk..suddenly, v suddenly its time to start uni.. another new chapter of our lives.. that time it was still march n collecting our results.. den worked at riverina recruitment..i learned many tings.. dealed with difficult and siao pple..realised tt wasnt a job i wan ..and tho i m nt satisfied with my a level grades, i noe tt theres nth i can do to change them..so i m now only looking to the future.. last sat, went for prss bbq..time flew..v fast we had to leave already..but tt nite, i summoned my courage..and did wat i wanted to do for v long.. just to complete a memory and have a 'closure'.. realised it wasnt tt diff to open my mouth to ask.. tho the moment for me was still abit nervous n awkward..but i have my wish fulfilled..and life can go on.. mayb sometimes all it takes for u to fulifill ur dream is to take a step forward..n not look back..den u will gain courage to continue.. sometimes the memories of the past are too heavy for me to carry..i wished i cld forget everyting n start on a clean slate..feel as if there were 'many' me(s).. and to thk that each of me was actually all the same person, the me now..its rather complex n messy.. its simpler to disconnect myself from those past me(s) and see 'them' from a 3rd person point of view.. then i wont feel so burdened.. relationships are so complex.. its either r/s or f/s.. when u are inbwtn, its either a) movin from frenship to couplehood, or b) vice versa, or worse c) not r/s anymore but not exactly frenship.. thts the stage where even facing each other, u duno wat to say.. u duno how to feel..u duno whats going on in each other's mind.. yet when u c the person as a 'person' totally and forget the fact u were close b4..den its like quite sad.. but when u c the person as someone close b4 but now no more.. then its like quite weird..thts wat i mean abt feeling disconnected.. like the you that were close with that person is another person.. u cannot relate back to this person who's actually u... cuz everting happened sometime ago..now the memory is hazy.. its like u woke up have amnesia , ppl tell u wat happened b4, who u are etc..but the state u are in (with amnesia) find it hard to relate tt u are actually also the person they are talking abt..that they have in their memory..that those tings happened to u.. i thk i m just getting more n more chim... wondered if it will b better if i can forget the past..and just rmb wat i have now.. but wat wenxin said was true la.. watever tht happened in the past..u cannot expect it to turn back like it was at that time..u haf to inspect the 'past' with new eyes and a mindset of the current, taking into account that ppl have changed, and time have evolved.. the settings are diff..and not possible to go back 100% to what was b4.. (if possible at all)the child-like novelty and the assumption tt things wont change.. when u are small.. u always tink things wont change n will remain the way they r..until pple die n u realise, until ur older cousins grow up n stop playing 'masak' with u or when they start saying tings like 'u will understand when u grow up urself'..when u 1st make frens n go into ur first relationships.. wat make these 1st times special n memorable is our ignorance that they can ever end...sometimes its good to be child like..seeing too much of the world..makes one jaded and cynical.. such a lengthy thoughtful post today.. dont thk anyone finish reading..cuz eyes painful halfway le rite..haha.. i m training to become journalist ma..so must write more.. anw u all noe i m a person who thks ALOT... tts why i m not easily comprehended.. lastly..i watched fantastic 4 yest..give it 3.5 stars ba..cuz was disappointed they won the fight against the evil victor so easily..but means v obviously will have a sequel.. i bought 3 new shorts n fan wei qi's cd at v much discounted price.. and i thk.. tampines is v boring..all the shops renovate..but i dont like leh..and they took away my MOS burger!! sad man..got memories there one..change so much but i thk still nth to shop leh..damn sian..took away world of sports..wanna buy sports shorts also cannot find..dont thk i will wan to go back there..haha..nt much chance also la..after i go to uni..i thk tampines will become more n more rare to me.. gtg... p.s: Happy anniversary to myself n him!! lazy to count .. 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