Tuesday, March 15, 2005 7:46 PM

love revolution - a love that has very great impact and force that it takes ur breath away, a transformation??

i didnt go to work today! hmm, when i woke up, its already late... and i realised i just cant thk wat i have to wear suddenly.. like my mind's sealed off.. everyting not ironed.. and clothes that i can rmb i have are in the wash..(wic mean i only wore them to work yest).. haha... den it hit me that i didnt want to go to work... well, everyday i have tis feeling in the morning.. but today it was esp strong.. i feel a strong urge just to b alone n stay home.. in the morning was ok, only me n father at home.. but afternoon it was so bad, cuz father, sis, n bro all at home.. den i felt v 'disturbed' haha.. i mean, kinda wish there is some kind of sanctuary thats quiet n beautiful i cld go to.. but i didnt feel like stepping out of my hse at all.. so home was the best place.. but not quiet.. sigh.. just wanna have some peace, den my mum call me ask me why i nv go work, so i say i had headache.. den she ask me to go out buy top up card for papa (cuz his hp got stolen a few days ago) so he can use the M card.. but i just wanna b left alone on my 'self-declared' off day.. muhaha, so i told her that.. i mean, my life is 5 days of work, den sat pei him, den sunday help my mum.. i feel its been such a long time since i got time to myself.. hence, i kinda miss that time in dec when i had chicken pox!!! muhaha... sian, itchy la, but could slp till late late, wake up got ppl buy food for me (but everyday fishball soup) or cook porridge for myself.. but at least i cld slack at home.. but i dunch thk i wanna it to repeat again la.. time flies, its already March.. of 2005.. months pass like days sia... b4 i knw it, it mite be me already in university.. (july/aug).. dat means 3/4 of this 'new' year gone... wow..

anyway, i always write out of point... cuz i type watevers on my mind ma.. but den i tend to thk n thk further n further n hence end up quite far from my original topic.. haiz.. anw, my blog heading today is love revolution.. cuz i watched tis series of jap love drama today 'love revolution'... i realllyyy like the guy in the show.. his chinese name is 'teng mu zi ren' in reality.. cant spell his japanese name.. he is really v shuai! tis set of vcd i looked for it v long already cuz nowadays VCD shops nv sell jap dramas.. den i thk last yr i found in bedok sale.. $3 only!! so happy tt time.. when i took out to watch last time, my sis say ''tis one ni bu shi kan guo le meh?' den today my brother see me watch den also say 'ni kan le ji bai chi hai yao kan...' lol.. nv a few hundred times so kua zhang la.. but den i watched at least once or twice when it was shown on chn 8 many yrs ago.. and watched my tapes.. and also watched tis vcd i bought at least 3 times b4 including today la.. so i guess its still counted quite many times.. one reason is sometimes i forget how their love story 'processed' , other reasons include my mind always pop out their image of the show.. esp the actor's eyes, and the way he says 'so desu neh?' or 'gomen'.. and i will feel the urge to view the vcds.. hahha... abit sot.. but den thers tis particular scene i noticed today, he purporsely hurt the girl's feelings by being nonchalent pattern.. pretend he already forgot abt her.. den he acted v sei like tt, smiled to others who saw the scene, and den walked away with his shoulders 'suai-ing' (like turn left n right in a confident manner) in his suit.. wow.. blown away by tt, n v nice scene cuz his smile faded away as he walked away... i duno y but all those sad scenes i like more.. not sadistic but cuz they provoke my emotions to feel for the guy or girl.. esp the guy cuz he's always acting wei-da, and nonchalent yet i cld c how he truly felt.. (but i dun really agree with how he dealt with the relationship la.. but v complicated to explain... cuz afterall he broke up for the girl's future.. u haf to watch it b4 den understand me).. i m typing v fast n alot.. but nvm i will continue to ramble on.. haha...but tis time i watched the show, i noticed he really quite old..cuz got crow's feet when he smiled, and wrinkles here n der.. in tt show he looked already 30.. so in real life, he must be 30+.. wic is true cuz last time i got go internet search him.. he got a twin brother man.. but i duno whos tt.. nv c b4.. (haha, actually got la.. cuz they will look similar ma, den see him means c his bro lor).. but sad to thk he's not 'original' like tt la.. got his twin .. hmm.. but i stil like him (the character) v much ... n the show is v heart-wrenching.. not tt type that will make u cry.. but just like 'ah! why... faster togt leh'.. but d ending was quite disappointing la.. cuz the guy just suddenly appear.. den propose.. shd be more special ma after so much of 'tuo tuo la la'.. thk i like him better den my 'original japanese love' takuya , mu chun tuo zai! haha.. mayb next time find a poster of him.. (i alr got one of takuya)...

i think i better go.. if not i keep typing more n more abt my jap craze.. but seriously last time i more of a fan, always tok abt them to my frens.. those dramas.. and when i was young, i liked japan alot, ask me my fave country it will be japan, the place i wanna honeymoon at, japan.. fav food, sushi, move to japan when i grow up to find a jap husband.. (okok.. thk i m alarming everyone...) but their love shows v nice to see ma..cuz i m those die hard romantics, like to watch n read love story.. better den korean ones cuz the latter shows always will cry cuz pple die or sick or wat... like the qiu tian de tong hua.. hope one day i can find those old jap dramas i wanna buy!! :)

Signing out,

pen is running out of ink.