~songs in my head~
没有地球太阳还是会绕.But I don’t care what they say. I’m in love with you. I just wanna fall and lose myself Laughing so hard it hurts like hell Forget about everything and run away, yeah ~ MOTTO ~ :: if you have tried your best, there's no need for regrets. :: ~ THOUGHTS ~ By ourselves we are too weak to hold our own even for a moment. "And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God" (Romans 8:28) For what it's worth, it was worth all the while. "God has given, God has taken, blessed be the name of God" (Job 1:21) "I know what I’m doing. I have it all planned out – plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for.” (Jeremiah 29:11) Hit Counters |
:: juz taking a moment to remember ::
Monday, December 15, 2003 7:11 PM
you're dangerous, very dangerous indeed... sometimes i wonder if its all fate when people come & go in ur life... today i thot abt a fren, a v gd fren in d past, and wonder was it sth i did tat cause us to b not in contact now? the last time i counted, it was 4 months since we saw/contact each other... and yet she lives just a 5 mins walk from me... always been thking mayb all along, i wasnt a gd enuff fren for her, and dats y acty she's glad to get rid of me... but den i dun thk she's tat hypocrite... surely those 4yrs of frenship were sincere & true? actually, i rather if there's really some problems, that we can sit tog and talk abt it... but she doesnt seem to b willing... earlier on tis yr, i made myself try v hard... so hard till it was so sad & hurting as there were not much response fr her... later part of tis yr, i began to try less harder... and on her bdae, i made a scrapbk for her & delivered it myself to her postbox...not sure if i had inserted into d wrong slot or what, but since then i had no news fr her... mayb i haf sort of accepted it, that its hard fer us to remain or go back to d frens we were b4, but all i'm hoping is tat we can stil keep in contact... juz sms-ed her asking if she will b gg to d gathering tml, and as i expected i din get a reply... mayb she changed her hp no, or simply she's not replying... though i kinda find it tough to make myself believe she's tat kind of person aft these yrs of frenship & sharing... everytime i see her on msn, i go msg her say hi but not long aft she logs in, she will be offline... and tis leads me to suspect she's 'appearing offline'... haiz~ what did i do to deserve tis i really dun get it... i put much into d frenship and now wat do i get? though i got many gr8 frens in jc now, but she's stil a fren i'm missing... missing alot in fact... *hope tat one day, someday... our frenship will b renewed* and if she does see tis entry, i'll like to tell her, i duno y tings are in tis state... but if u really wanna to end d frenship, at least let me noe why... hmm, mayb enuff of the above... if not d whole entry will b non-stop sadness... and den later my mood wil b affected... mayb lets tok abt some happy stuff... in d morning, i went to VJ for THC training workshop, the env was quite old but big compound... hmm, got to meet a few VJ-cians, they wer quite friendly... and d gers were sweet like angels... spotted some SG also, v spotty, wear glasses, wif double-side bag...typical VJ guys... but qlty is abit better den tpj's guys lah... haha~ many of them look at us v curiously as they walk pass, wondering what the hell were tampinesians doing in THEIR school... anyway, d workshop was lengthy but quite fun lah... at least we got off at 4pm, and got free food & beverages... (however, we'l nid to pay $10 for d workshop, so its not really free)... hmm, den aft tat, we went to parkway eat ice-cream! one big scoop $2.50... din eat gelare though... next time tues half-price den go eat... haha~ acty, i'm not v looking-4ward to d 4E2 gathering tml... *oOpS* den my mum is kinda bu shuang wif me, cuz i told her i wont be eating dinner @ home again tml... i noe i havent been eating at home quite often last week, but den she shd understand... if i dun enjoy now, den wait till next yr i haf to battle wif A' liao leh... somemore, eating outside also means i haf to spend more $$... but tml is bo pian mar... aie... sometimes its really unfair... my sis & bro dun eat at home as well, therefore i haf to b my parents' companion for dinner... (wic is usually d case), so y is she grumbling just these few occasions when i'm eating out? ok, sorry, i'm starting to bore u all... but u can skip reading if u're feeling bored, but i juz nid to vent all i'm feeling rite now... (wic is quite alot, if u've been reading fr juz now...) argh!! another ting tat is bugging me is i am starting to self-doubt & qns myself if i really feel nth towards (unnamed)... *anyomous* is quite a dangerous person, i'm afraid to like him... i dun wanna like him... so i better keep my distance... btw, dont nid to qns me who's *anyomous*... i wont say... not now... (if u duno who i am toking abt, juz pretend u are readin a story)haha~ but i am sure i can control my feelings... surely there muz b a way to end it b4 it starts going out of control... dun wanna put myself in a miserable, disadavantaged position... yesh, i'm selfish, i'm egoistic, i'm afraid, but i'm only protecting my own interests... self above love... haha~ shall stop blogging (u are glad too rite?)... ta-ta... Signing out, c'est la vie & life goes on... 0 wore their hearts on their sleeves <$BlogItemCommentCount$> Comments:<$BlogCommentBody$> By <$BlogCommentAuthor$>, at <$BlogCommentDateTime$> <$BlogCommentDeleteIcon$> |
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